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2011-07-13T22:02:00.003+08:00

My smart father deleted all our taiwan pictures in his camera. how smart can someone get!

2011-07-11T00:29:00.002+08:00

Zhongxiao donglu's party world now! Place damn nice. Went w my bro and 2 other girls from our tour grp. They dunt hav a small rm so gave us a rm meant for 10 ppl. Tis trip isn't as nice as I thot it would be bt I or shld I say WE bought many many many things! Lingzhi, royal jelly, jade each cost a few thousands( of course my parents bought them) lots more food and rubbish. Bt wad I'm most excited is my new bag! Wanted to buy Burberry cauz it's more affordable bt in e end we walked past e louis vuitton's boutique first. So well we went in to take a look and I saw my fav lv tote! It's nt always I can find a bag which I like.bt tadah! Found! So I bought that straight off. It's a new design so it's a lil more ex. Bt I like it! And my mom just say ok!? Hahaa. Shocked! Burberry's round e 1000 plus range bt Louis vuitton's on e higher end. So anyway thank u mummy. And I gt another coach wristlet since I always wanted it n I won't hav to carry my bag everywhere I go =) bro gt a Burberry wallet and my mom gt a lv brown bag

2011-06-17T12:08:00.002+08:00

Jessie went to the vet on wed cauz she hasnt been eating for quite a while and she was running a fever. Doc put her on the drip cauz she's dehydrated and she has liver infection. 3 weeks ago blood test reported everything within range, but this latest one had a few counts over limit, WBC and 2 other liver enzymes count were way above the healthy limit. WBC healthy upper limit is 17 for dogs, but jessie's 63! so get her antibiotic and 2 med for the liver. she's not running a fever already and she eats just a little (better than nth). looks like she's gonna be fine soon. (i hope, pray!)
Mummy and daddy keep saying she's gonna die. no she's not going to. she's just sick. sick will look like LOOK LIKE gonna die, bt it's diff from really gonna die.

i just hope she gets well.

anyway. my brother's back to ns reservice, so we cant celebrate my bdae with him. bt anyway, i think i want a earring. since i can keep it for yrs and yrs. ooohhh so excited. my first tiffany!! bt think will wear during special occasions or smth. after my last incident at hscs, i'm really scared to wear earrings that cost smth. Or should i get cash since i havent saved up for taiwan?? hmm.. mebbe combine money and earring?? hmm....

ok back to work

2011-06-12T22:26:00.003+08:00

SATURDAY 11/6

Went to my malay's neighbour's wedding, which is just downstairs. for about an hour before leaving to head to "Petopia" at Seletar. The place is awesome! jessie will be alright there... She's gonna have her own room with aromatherapy essential oils at nights. In the day she'll be out in the playroom with people taking care of her. 2 normal baths (in small bathtubs) and a microbubble bath! with 2 moxibustion treatments... talk about luxury... the cost for her 9 day stay is almost half the amount for one pax 8 days taiwan trip. But she's quite comfortable there. brought her there and she seems comfortable enough. At the door, 4,5 dogs came to "greet" us. barking wagging their tails. they're the mascots for the hotel and they're so cute! there's a golden retriever and other 3 dogs. they're allowed to roam the place freely (not tied somewhere =)) toured the place. not THAT big. but it's alright. better than ANY other "hotels". This is reallie a dog hotel. the others we went to last time, they're more like boarding hostels for dogs. i can say that this is the best dog hotel in singapore (judging from the price they charge too) At first i was really worried that shell be really stressed out and will suffer for that 9 days. but i'm more relieved after seeing that she seems quite comfortable there. The people there are really professional and nice. Daddy, Jessie and I stayed there for bout an hour, touring the place and understanding their different services and letting jessie interact with the other dogs and staff there. really professional. but it comes with quite a heavy price tag. $58/night and $68/30 mins treatment. expensive but it's worth it if she's comfortable there. after all it'll be the first time we're leaving her alone for so long. Oh and there's a surveilance camera in the rooms and playroom, so we can see her 24hrs. Just log into their website. Ahhh... so we can see her sleeping...

anyway it's 1 week to father's day. 2 weeks to my birthday. 3 weeks to taiwan! i have so many things to look forward to! one each week!

birthday... dunt intend to do much. mummy gave me a few options. i'm so confused now! ipad2? burberry classic nova???????? tiffany & co. diamond earring???????????????? cash??????????????????????? didnt expect much but wow she's nice this yr.
oh and we're going to mandarin's melt the world cafe buffet! damn nice!
my sweet sweet ex colleagues...celebrating with me nxt tues
NUS friends(psych group mates)...this friday
gtc and jj...sending my presents over =) hahaaa

2011-04-18T10:19:00.002+08:00

same thing happened. let jessie out to go to the toilet. and i went back to sleep. woke up when i heard mom screaming "JESSIE" rushed out to see wad happened to her. she was at the balcony and her hind leg's full of shit and she cant stand up. Mom woke up becauz she thot she heard ppl screaming at each other. but it's jessie who screamed. mom said it's not the normal dog whining or crying and she had nv hear dogs make this kinda sound b4. it's like jessie was screaming for help. sigh....

i'm lookin forward to my trip in july. but. i'm gonna leave jessie here. really really scared if smth will happen to her. she will be alright right?? ya she will be. she will

2011-04-17T16:37:00.002+08:00

yay yay! my trip's finally settled. Booked, and paid the deposit just now. i FINALLY FINALLY convinced my parents (more of my mom) to go to taiwan! she was so so insistent on hk. but luckily a few days ago there;s this frien told her taiwan fun. hahaa. so yep! settled. 4 july!!!!

But first. i hav to settle my final terms. which is 8 more days. and i havent done anythin yet. nice... ok time to studie!

oh. i think i'll be workin after exams. need money to buy stuff =)

muacks!

2011-04-11T15:44:00.002+08:00

my dog gets tired after a hair cut or a bath, not becaus she cuts her own hair or bathe herself but becauz she wastes her energy struggling. struggle dosent work anyway jessie, ur hair will still get snipped off! ahhaa

2011-04-10T19:26:00.002+08:00

While changing channels, came across ch 604, "Hachiko: A Dog's Story" was playing. I watched the part when Hachiko kinda sensed smth bad's gonnna happen to his owner, so he refused to walk him to the train station. but in the end he went to the train station with his ball. for the first time, he fetched the ball his owner threw. the owner was really really proud, telling ppl around him it's the first time Hachiko fetched what he threw. When the owner wanna leave for his train, Hachiko kept barking, wanting to get his attention and wants the owner not to go. He kinda senses that something's wrong. He then wait for his owner at his usual spot outside the train station. But his owner nv came back. For nine years, even in the winter, he went to the train station to wait for his owner.
OMG. i cant watch this. Actually i only watched like 15 mins combined. I cant bear to watch it.
If u're looking for a movie to cry. u'll cry in this one.
This is a real story. Hachiko has a statue in japan. He's well known in japan for his loyalty. i belive dogs are the most loyal animals in the world. i cant stand ppl abusing them. how can they even bear to hurt these animals. even the not so good looking ones are cute to me. i hate to see strays around. they're out in the open, through rain sun (luckily spore;s weather's nt too bad). and they eat scraps of food. dirty food and water... jessie's really lucky.

AH... Hachiko.... go watch it. u'll cry. even if u dont love dogs. that kind of loyalty.. it's just admirable.

2011-03-28T14:28:00.002+08:00

i cant concentrate. i think i have some probs with my body. like a real problem. i keep thinkin bout it and researching it online. Really scared it is as what my symptoms are showing. Ytd felt reallie uneasy. hoping it could go away today. But it didnt. Oh shit i'm really scared now. dunt dare to tell my mom yet. Think i'll wait till wed. If it still hasnt go away i'll go to the doctor. Shit. now i'm scared.

2011-03-19T21:07:00.001+08:00

If God is really as she has mentioned, God wouldnt be God. God is loving, forgiving, merciful and almighty. But God will never punish by taking the life of the innocents. It is crazy to say that God is responsible for the Japan tsunami. If God really wants to punish ppl, would he do it on innoocent children, animals, elderly? wtf. We dont need such things to know that GOd is real. How can there such ppl who pray for such stuff. You're not noble by praying to rid evil from this world. No one is born evil. If you're noble enough, be a counsellor or smth, get ppl to turn to good instead of praying they can die and vanish. I think she might be someone who kills and proclaims that it is done in the name of God. Such ppl's existence is more harmful then the real evil ppl.

2011-03-12T18:20:00.002+08:00

Japan earthquake tsunami, indonesia volcano eruption. is this a good way to start 2011. it's not even a quarter into the yr. 2011's not gonna be a good year. Japan's economy gonna be hit. us hasnt really recovered yet. sigh. the world's a dangerous place to live. either natural or man made calamities.

may the lost souls rest in peace.

2011-03-08T23:33:00.002+08:00

Personality mid terms tmr. I still have 2 chpts 80 pages to glance thru and 8 chpts to READ AND UNDERSTAND and 5 lecture notes to go thru.
Mummy just told me smth. I'm so scared i'm going to lose my only grandmother left. the one whom i am the closest to among all my other relatives. she's nt my biological grandmother but she treats me like her own granddaughter since i know how to speak. I dunnoe wad to do now. i cant continue my revision.

2011-02-28T21:09:00.003+08:00

Dad and mom was arguing in the car just now. always when it comes to money.. mom say dad calculative, dunt wanna come out money. dad says he's the one paying the bills. mom says it's for the family. then blah blah.
dad keeps saying he wants a maid but mom dosent. then mom says that the whole hse adults no need for maid. and everyone's out of the hse have maid for wad. but actually she just dosent want someone to create prob (like my dad having an affair with the maid). why is she thinking this way. cant we just get a ugly and fat one. I want one.. dad's willing to employ one. but because of my mother's insecurities..... i'm nt gonna be able to eat home cooked food everyday and no one's gonna take care of jessie. =(

will women of a certain age really lose so much confidence in keeping their husbands? will i be like tat nxt tyM???

i dunnoe. bt unless i can convince my mother, i'm not gonna have a maid. any ideas on how to????

2011-02-27T01:43:00.002+08:00

study I/o tmr. Mon morning presentation then Soci tutorial(hell). Mon afternoon tuition. Go home study. Tues 2 tuitions. Plus get my pay for 1 student. Go to tm to buy wadever i want. Go home study. Wed PLSPLSPLSPLSPLS go for lect. Go home study. Thurs morning I/o mid terms. Thurs afternoon cognitive tutorial.Go home sleep =) Sat 2 tuitions.

Oh while i was at my pasir ris tutee's hse this afternoon a malay family walked past. Since i'm facing the window i could see them they could see me. Saw someone familiar. V familiar. then i told my tutee that i think i saw my sec sch frien. then he walked back and say "u jolene rite" bt i reallie forgotten his name, so i just said ya and bye bye. then my tutee started laughing till her face was red. We tried to continue to be "serious". I was telling her "fungi and bacteria are MICROorganisms" bt ya. we cant get serious cauz she kept laughing.
bt anyway the person's Haikal. Sec sch frien. Such a coincidence that he's just living next door. But yea. nice to see old sch mates.

unlocked facebook. bt i still wunt be using it much. dont reallie like it. Oh well. i just watched "the tourist" mummy brought the dvd home. Oh. I reallie have the urge to wanna save up to go overseas study. Mebbe if i reallie cant make it to honours in nus i will go overseas to get that honours degree. (say say only... hahaaa. no la bt i reallie wanna go overseas).

Oh was thinking of going overseas myself. or with some friends. bt sigh. why dont i have a boyfriend now. can i get one to go overseas with me. and then come back and split up. hahaha. or will wang lee hom come and get me.

2011-02-22T10:47:00.002+08:00

This song is so crazy now in china. So special till Faye Wong commented that she is interested to do a cover of it but she failed trying at home. No lyrics at all. 忐忑 is the song name. And it really makes u 忐忑 You might not get it the first time but listen a few more times, you might get hooked. this girl is good. hahaa.
*OH! look at her expressions when she's singing. classic!

2011-02-18T13:42:00.002+08:00

Presentation went alright ytd. i should be immune to presentations cauz it's like a regular thing. but still get the jitters b4 presentations. like while preparing and stuff. but i dont get nervous when i stand up to present. it's like just talking. the trick? it's to look at ppl who dosent stress u. it's a great trick. Just choose ppl sitting on the left middle and right of the classroom to look at. about 4 or 5 will do. Choose those who will not give u the kinda look. i especially like nerds or some kind looking ppl. and i will look at them and engage them in my presentation. good trick cauz u have eye contact with the "audience" and u wunt get freaked out by some kinda STARES some ppl (like me) will give.
bt ytd was presenting on discussion qn. discussion which means ppl will rebutt ur ans and stuff so it was preety scary at first. but this tutor/lecturer is a hong konger and he is not intimidating so i dared to "argue" with him. and cauz he dosent know much bout spore so i can just fake it. like FAKE IT. hahaa sounds a lil dirty cauz of the movie i just watched.

OH SO EXCITED. all my online shopping stuff is here! last parcel came in ytd. at bout 10.30am =) love it. i'm gonna shop online nxt month.

Mid terms coming. but i'm not awfully stressed out. cauz i have my 5 papers spread out throughout the month of march, so it's on average a paper a week. So yea i have the luxury of time. bt i'll have to consistently study. which is good. cant wait to get out of uni. kinda hate it. i realised i lost my passion for books after sec sch. jc mebbe a lil. uni none. i hate it.

2 tuition tmr. sun must go bai bai. i dont mind. i like seeing my cousins. it's e first time in my life that i'm seeing my mother's side of the family so often. and it's nice. i like regina and yuzhe. looking forward to see them this sun!

oh and i'm meeting sabby later. kinda miss her. it's been more than a month since i last saw her. and it's nice meeting friends u like. =)

2011-02-18T13:37:00.002+08:00

Ben and Jerry's ice cream has always been one of my fav ice cream. Especially the strawberry cheescake! always wanna buy it but it's like $14 for a small tub. Or 2 for $24 or smth like tat. still expensive. Ytd went to NTUC and it was on offer, 2 for $20! So i got it. Didnt see this "half baked" before, and it's e combination of cookie dough, fudge and chips so yea i got it. It's really chocolatey so i dont reallie like it. BUT the strawberry cheesecake delicieux! always love it. and still loving it.

2011-02-13T22:53:00.003+08:00

WOke up at 8.30 todae to go over to my 2nd uncle place to bai bai. We're supposed to go on every 7 days, which means every sun till the 49th day. But since i kinda enjoy the company of my cousins i didn reallie mind waking up early.

My 2nd uncle's 2 daughters, justina(J1) and regina(sec3). And my youngest cousin Yu zhe (6yr old). I have to say that i'm reallie popular with kids, including my cousins. and of course students. Was reallie close with my 2 girl cousins when they were younger cauz we would meet up quite often. But close as in they like playing with me. they were just pri sch kids then. now they've grown up. bt i like regina better. we sticked together during the funeral, and the times when we meet to bai bai. justina... she's like a typical me last tym. dao dao. ok mebbe not as dao. but u get wad i mean. always msging. dunt reallie talk to other ppl. cool cool look kinda stuff. bt yea. i still like her.

ok back to today. hmm. after we went to my 2nd uncle's house went to check out the tablet thingy, where to put my grandfather's ash and blah blah. then we went to my uncle's restaurant. ALL of us =) hahaa. nice. like family reunion. Yu zhe kept sticking to me (since the funeral and everytym we meet). So he took my dad's car instead of his dad (my uncle)'s car so he could sit with me. =) hahaa. he's so cute. Ah i forgot to take a pic of him. will do it nxt tym and post it here. so yea we had like more than 10 dishes for lunch. 4 big crabs (chilli and salted egg), prawns, fish, sharks fin, sambal veg, pig leg, kou rou bao, wu xiang, nan ru rou, mushroom scallop veg, lotus rice,fried squid, blah blah blah. More than 10 dishes for 12 ppl(excluding yuzhe cauz he's busy with my bro's iphone. Talked to regina a lot. and entertaining yuzhe. was fun. just chat chat with cousins, uncles aunties..
then went home and went out again for group meeting. STRESS. i dunnoe anything about wad they were saying and my presentation's on thurs. and i'm doing the discussion part! omg. discussion! shit. Till thurs i willbe damn stressed out. oh my Industrial Organisational Psychology's group consist of 6 girls. this is e first tym my group has ALL girls. boring. oh there is this pretty girl in my group. She has a reallie nice accent. she's korean. so yea. she isnt v preety for a korean but in singapore she is. fair fair slim slim. oh anyway i hate this group the most out of all my proj groups in nus. becauz firstly all girls. secondly they're all work no play. third i just dont like them.

oh i have to say this again i love my dressing table becauz i chose it myself and caus it's big enough for all my stuff and now my laptop's on it cauz i'm having a leg water spa and the wire isnt long enough to put near my study table. ah i'm loving it hahaa.

oh i love sabrina choo tse ting. currently. hahaaa. she is a kind of frien whom i can be comfortable around and just like being with her. although we arent like the bestest of friends but she's a close friend of mine (to me, i dunnoe if it is for her, but she's a close friend to me)

and junjie. cauz he's always there when i need someone. and he dosent get cross with me regardless of wad i do and wad i sae. sometimes i;m reallie insensitive and rude to him but he dosent get angry. i love u. but it's reallie too bad we dunt have that kinda sparks. we've known each other since i was in sec 2? yep. sec 2 sec 1. at first u were kinda cold and boring. but after a while we began to reallie warm it up and i can tell u anything. anything in the world. u're always supporting me and wunt get irritated with me regardless of the crap i'm repeating to u like mebbe a 1000 times.

2011-01-28T12:20:00.002+08:00

noe wad..ian went to have a talk with one of my lecturers. and my lecturer was saying if u wanna be a clinical psychologist gotta get FIRST class honours or masters degree. and becauz there will be plenty of people with such qualifications, it's good to do related jobs or have such experience. i really dunnoe wad i wanna be nxt tym. do i really want to be a psychologist or wad. i really dunnoe. it's the last sem of my 2nd yr. really worried that i cant make it to 4th yr let alone first class. sigh

2011-01-26T22:25:00.002+08:00

finished off with the funeral today. the first 2 days were hectic. becauz grandpa's body only came around 7 plus from malaysia. so it's just waiting for my bro to come around 10, and mom to come round 11. before they came, there was the praying rituals. went to sch on tues for soci lect, then to bukit batok for the funeral. helped out a lil by folding the ignot thingy. then at nite there was the ritual again and the burning of house, car, blah blah and somemore rituals. today. sending off to mandai for cremation. thot becauz i wasnt close to my grandpa i'll not cry. but the atmosphere and everything. the live band played sad sad songs, and thinkin that it was the last LAST time we can see him and talk to him. tears dropped (only a few drops) bt when we were at the viewing place in mandai overlooking the coffin moving into the fireplace, i reallie cried. i did rememb the time when i stayed over in malaysia at his house, at that tym he still could walk and manage his mama shop. tears just welled up when the coffin came into sight and started moving slowly into the fireplace. my grandpa has struggled on so long, toes cut, ankles cut, fingers cut, 2 legs cut. and in the fireplace this "spoilt" body is burnt and he's released from all the suffering. my aunt just couldnt control herself. we were standing in front so we could see the coffin come into sight. she was reciting the "ami to fo" at first then when the coffin came up, she just broke down. uncle put his arms around her to comfort her. bt when the coffin started moving, he too broke down.
eldest uncle is grandpa's eldest son. apple of grandpa's eye. i nv seen him cry or sad b4. just fierce scolding his workers. but he cried. eldest of 7 children. huge responsibility. "da ge"

oh and my 2 cousins justina regina were of course there. it's hard to talk to justina now. like v emo, just msg msg msg. regina's different. could talk to her better. she'll like come to talk to me when she see that i'm not busy with my youngest cousin yuzhe. hahaa. he is one hyperactive boy. and the prob is he is sticking to me like glue. always wanna be with me. kids all like me. dunnoe why. last tym justina regina also e same. always stick to me. my students also like me.

oh the student that i gave up last yr msg me a few days ago suddenly. say she miss me. i'm not kidding. bt no way am i gonna go back to teach her unless my pay rises.

still kinda disappointed i cant celebrate cny. was reallie looking forward to it. bt oh well. this sun the 7th day have to go to bai bai again. CNY! everywhere i go i see red decorations, new yr goodies, new yr stuff. =(

2011-01-23T22:16:00.003+08:00

i am so lucky. there's no notes for soci, no textbook or webcasts. only lectures and course pack. so die die must go lect copy notes.
the only time i decided to skip soci lecture was last wed. thot i'm gonna miss out completely for last wed lect. bt just now the lecturer uploaded soci lect notes for last week! lucky me =)

2011-01-23T17:20:00.002+08:00

back from buying my jeans =) bought 2 =) oh i reallie didnt realise the isetan levis is for guys. girls can wear it too but it's designed for guys. daddy spent more than 400 on 3 jeans. 2 for me 1 for my fat bro. he's so fat that he can only wear a few types. Levis 501 waist 38! hahaa. there were other cuttings but think 501 was e only one which was comfortable enough.
oh i bought one with real crystals. i reallie didnt noe. i just chose e colour and cutting. and i didnt look at the price and the crystal one cost like 229. only know when daddy was paying. luckily i didnt choose the other one, the back pocket had the levis signature pattern COVERED with crystals. 300 plus. anywae, i'm happy i bought new jeans. bt i still like my old one. simple and clear cut. bt oh well. better than not having any =)
oh bought 4 bolsters. and had to walk all the way from tm to the carpark oppo tamp1 cauz tm, cs, tamp1's carpark's ALL full. think everyone's stocking up for cny.

anyway. jessie's almost fine. the wound's healing so it gets kinda itchy. and her itchy paws just keeps scratching it till it bleeds again. this time is not pus. but thick blood. she is just so naughty. hahaaa

another thing. met up with 2 friends lately. fri went out with meiting and yixin. finally after 1 yr we met yixin. went to marina square and marina bay sands. i pray to god that i can make a fortune so that i can fulfill my dream of shopping in high end boutiques without looking at the price tag (just like today, just that it will be in boutiques)

wed. i skipped 4 lect. SO SO SO SO much to catch up now ( i should be preparing for my tutorial tmr but here i am)
cut and dye my hair on tues, then went to meet mummy and my uncle's gf. then saw yushu. awkward cauz my mom kept askin me to say hello but u noe.........
after so long not talking or seeing her. things started to flow back. her sister's msges, the talk we had, sec sch times, jc times. it's reallie stupid to lose a friend because of such a small prob. things start to look simpler when u cool off the heat and anger and wadever, regardless of how BIG the problem was to u when it first happened. so i msged her. we met on wed. thot it will be kinda awkward. bt it's like nth happened at all if we nv purposely talk bout that incident. went to chinatown (oh and i FINALLY FINALLY found my da zhong guo's nian gao!) and then we went to sing sing, back to tamp mart for dinner. and she sent me home (cauz i made her do it, as always.... hahaa. but i do walk her home too ok!) anywae, glad things turned out alrite for us.

i have to get back to my lang & cog. =)

*oh isnt my previous post the cutest thing ever, i'm still so into it!

2011-01-22T23:47:00.004+08:00

is it the cutest thing! it's not sweets or jelly or decorations. it's similar to the chinese kueh. the red kueh wrapping red bean filling. this is similar. just that it has a thin layer of jelly surrounding the filling and it's so cuteee! lil fruits and vegetables. mummy just brought it home. someone from work gave it to her. so cutee! and it tastes kinda good too. thai dessert. so cutee! oh it's eaten cold =) cuteee hahaaa

2011-01-16T23:39:00.002+08:00

cooked her dinner and gave her her food. then i went in to do some stuff. went back out to clean her mouth and i saw her in the living room and there was a pool of red watery thing beside her. her face was bleeding. the swell burst because she kept scratching. earlier i put socks on one of her paw to prevent her from scratching. bt she still managed to scratch with the other paw. shit i was scared. she's so impt to me. nth can happen to her. first it was the fall then the swell then now blood. my bro was still lying down watchin tv and he totally didnt realise what happen till i came out. used ice water to try to wash off and to stop the bleeding. but it isnt blood. it's blood plus pus. the swell burst so inside the swell is pus. her face didnt look as big and swollen because the pus came out. so it wasnt because of the fall that caused the swell. mebbe it;s some kinda insect tat bit her or wadever. anywae i dunt feel as guilty now. but still she fell and i know it hurts. and although her face dunt look so swollen now it's bloody. bt it'll be alrite i guess. dad's workin tmr and his next off day's on sun. so i reallie dunnoe how to bring her to the vet. my mother dosent wanna bring her. mebbe i'll see how it heals. just gotta get her to stop scratching.

anyway. i'll just hope and pray she'll be alright. and i love her.

2011-01-15T19:54:00.003+08:00

she looks like she's being abused. and the vet's not open on sundays. half day on sat. earliest is on mon. she looks so beaten up.

2011-01-15T00:48:00.002+08:00

i left jessie on the sofa and went in to do my tutorial registration. bout 15 mins. went back to the living room and saw jessie lying on the floor on her back. she fell form the sofa =( and it's my fault. she wanted to come up the sofa sp i carried her up. saw her sleeping so i went to do my stuff. checked if there was any injuries on her limbs or backbone but she seem fine and capable of walking. bathed her a few hours later and when i was cleaning her her eye i realised that it is bulging out. one eye is so small and there's this swollen thing portruding out. i caused her to have a bruised eye. i didnt even wash her face. immediately dried her and called mummy and daddy. when i was cleaning her eye later with optrex my hands were shivering. scared she got wad internal bleeding or smth. bt she's still able to eat walk sleep normally. mummy was kinda shocked when she saw her. didnt noe that bad. but she say it's prob just a knock and will be fine a few days later. if it does not will bring her to the vet.
i am so so sorry. i swear that i will not leave u alone on any high places anymore. sorry. please get well. i love u

2011-01-08T01:02:00.002+08:00

Last dinner today with my grandfather. won't be seeing him after today. think the next tym i see him it will be at his funeral. he's both legs are cut off due to diabetes, he needs to undergo dylasis (however u spell it), heart lungs gt prob. since i can remember he was sick. bt these few yrs is so much worse. he's a malaysian so coming to singaporen for treatment is reallie tiring and expensive. foreigners have to pay so much more for medical treatment in singapore. and whenever he feels unwell he'll be admitted to the icu at a private singapore hospital. this tym he stayed for 2 weeks. the other tym was last october or smth, also icu. cost cost cost. and dylasis. and foreigner price. so it was decided that grandpa will stay in malaysia's hospital whenever he's unwell instead of coming to singapore.
so, we had our last dinner. mummy's birthday today. so after tuition, went to buy her a cake b4 going to my uncle's for "reunion dinner". bout 20 plus "relatives" were there. my grandpa's sisters brothers, my cousins, uncles aunties blah blah. reached changi bout 8.45pm. luckily i made it in time to say a final bye to my grandpa when he's alive. cauz he left at 9pm.

anyway. finally met my cousins. since last christmas. i didnt noe justin's waiting for her results alreadie! thot she's sec4 this yr. but anyway, will ask mummy to call to ask on monday. it's nice catching up with my 2 cousins. they're my closest our of all my cousins. since young they like sticking to me. stayed at their house when i was sec1, at bishan. kinda fun. went out together with my uncle, auntie and both of them. played masa masa. ahahaa. they were just in pri 1 and 3 then. ah. they've grown.

anyway. update bout sch..... bid for 4 psych mods and 1 soci mod. i'll see if i shld take other mods on mon when round 3 bidding starts. anyway. like always. i'm always motivated to study b4 sch starts. then when it starts, i'll just be lazy again.
oh ya. i have 2 days week this time. not reallie on purpose though. it so happens that my mods fall on these 2 days. was aiming for 3 day week though. but so happens to be 2 day. hmm. anyway. i'll promise i'll try to read my textbook and to catch up with lectures. i wanna do well this sem. pull up my cap! jia you!

oh. update bout my baby. she's alrite now. she eats and sleeps like usual. and now she's always bugging me for her lunch and dinner. hahaa. good good. i like. she's just a cute fat lazy dog. =)

2010-12-31T21:09:00.002+08:00

i pray pray pray that next year:
i will be a better person
i will be a better daughter
i will be a better friend
i will be a better student ( minimal skipping of lects and tutorials, and keep to date with lessons and revise from day 1= better grades)
i will be a better teacher

jessie will be as happy, healthy, safe just as she is 3 years back. she hasnt been herself since monday. didnt eat for 2 days straight. not even a bite. even luncheon meat, ham cant do the trick. wed, she ate a few mouthful of chicken meat that's all. thursday i forced her to eat some potatoes. oh and i bought the cuttlefish that she like. she ate. but that's not healthy. she's old. her body takes more effort to digest these junk food. she cant walk properly. and today morning i saw her front paw moving uncontrollably, like spasm. forced myself to search for symptoms telling if a dog is dying. "No appetite, moving uncontrollably, sudden lost in interst in everything, reduced mobility, increase hours of sleep.." i know she's 12 and she's unhealthily fat. and shih tzu's normal lifespan's between 11-16. but i cant stand the thought of losing her. she's been the only person in my life that i really love and care and dote and she's everything to me. not even my parents are that important to me. i know people may think i'm hearless for saying this. but no one will understand how much i love my dog except me and her. so i pray PRAY that her behaviour these few days is because her teeth hurts, or she has a stomachache, or whatever. 2010, please take away all these and 2011, give my cute, lazy, healthy jessie back to me. let her live till she's 16. please. i beg of you. Lord, please grant me this wish. Please.

2010-12-28T01:01:00.002+08:00

went to ikea today! bought a drawer and mirror to replace my dressing table. and a new computer chair =) $545. cheaper than i thot. threw away some things in my room. and daddy painted my room last week. so it has a lil new feeling. ah i love my new drawer and mirror. and my chair =) i love new furniture =) hahaa. come and see my "new" room.
too bad my stupid study table's still as good as new. if not i can change it.
k. shall continue with my videos now since tmr i have tution.

2010-12-23T14:23:00.002+08:00

results out ytd.. looks like i really have to put in lots of hard work for the next few sems. well actually not that v bad but not good. got 1a, 2b, 2c. expected much worse actually.

anyway. tution with new student went...... not as good as the previous 2. just let her do a eng paper and i was looking thru her past exam papers and talkin to her mum. wunt have the kinda r/s i have with e other 2. and will be kinda stressful cauz this student's mom will be home 24/7. well giving tution is a job after all. dunt expect good life. but u'll get the money. we'll just see how it goes. it's always hard for the first few lessons. oh. and she;s like failing her eng and maths at p5. so it's gonna be hard for me the following yr. jia you!

and have a merry christmas! this yr not celebrating cauz mummy and daddy has to work. when does marina bay sands ever give some time off to their staff.

2010-12-17T00:55:00.002+08:00

we've broken up. today. cant wait for 2 months because it'll spoil christmas. i miss u as a friend.
and i miss my friends

2010-11-28T23:41:00.003+08:00

Been having pizza like almost twice a month for a few months now. daddy's kinda sick and lazy to buy back food sometimes. he has 3 mouths to feed at home every nite u noe. hahaa. it's funny how sometimes he comes home and ask "u 3 eat alreadie or not" hahaa. he meant my bro me and my lil baby. bt anyway. my exam's over. his isnt. weeks have passed. but i dunnoe. it's really hard to talk to him. like communicate. i dunt reallie have problem normally. but.. i dunnoe. the things we like is so so different. seriously. and i think he finds it absolutely ok to be silent throughout. bt it gets really awkard for me and i have to constantly think wad to say. i like spending time with him sometimes in sch, lessons. mebbe cauz we can talk bout the lesson itself or some sch stuff. but.. u noe personal stuff it's like.. he's keeping things to himself or just that he dosent have much to talk bout. i can go on about small things in my life for like hours and he'll be like.. oh... oh.. nodding and smiling but i can feel that he's just trying to get it over with. i dunnoe. we;ve gone to the movies, studied together, ate, played tennis.... think the best time is studying together cauz we dunt have to talk. is this normal. no it isnt. it's not my first r/s but it's the first time it is so bad. this is my first time since sec sch since i've jumped into a proper r/s but yet it's not working. no one to talk to bouut this cauz no one understands. jj is always telling me cauz we dunt noe each other well enough, but hello, it's not like i'm not trying.
anyway. exams over bt i dunt feel that great. mebbe cauz of this. and i'm still a lil upset about the earlier incident. i find that r/s regardless love frienship family is reallie complicated and irritating. when nth bad happens it's reallie nice. bt when some shit happens it's like hell. i reallie wanna just hole up and be isolated from everyone else. no need to socialise or wadever. just stick to those i'm reallie 100% comfortable with. like jj. he's like an invisible friend. there when u need him. always. and stays invisible when i dunt need him. i dunt mean to say i dunt talk to him when i dunt need him. we still chat..... aiya. i noe wad i mean can le.
my mother's crazy just now. she rang the doorbell, i was in the kitchen and i went to open the door. she gave me this black face and i just randomly say, why nv bring key. then she came in and shouted at me. i went back to my room then she came and bang my door. crazy. she herself bad mood come back and take it out on me. crazy.

2010-11-23T17:27:00.001+08:00

i cant get my mind off today's GEM qn. Wad's prosecutor's fallacy? this is a giveaway 2 mark question. this qn is worth 2% and i lost it. omg. just like tat. it's a giveaway GIVEAWAY. i havent been sleeping more than 2 hours since last wed thurs. and i didnt sleep last nite cauz i was making the stupid cheat sheet. and u noe wad, i explained in words then cauz my mind was freaking slow, my words cant seem to make any sense, so i wrote P(I|E). and i didnt define wad;s I or E. why didnt i wrte P(Innocence|Evidence)?!?!?!?! wtf. i keep thinking. why did i lose this 2%. paper wasnt as hard as i thot cauz i know at least roughly how to answer, i usually blank out with the CA qns. like totally not knowing how to start using my pen and writing some nos and words.
anywae, 2 papaers tmr morning and afternoon. and i'm freaking tiered. and i cant seem to concentrate cauz i keep thinkin bout the 2% lost. SUCK

2010-11-14T16:10:00.002+08:00

Always get so emotional when dogs are involved..Took this from a website from the "dog bible"

The Ten Things Your Dog Wants You To Know:

If your dog could talk, these are some of most important things she would like to tell you…

1 – My life will probably only last 7 to 14 years. It will hurt me more than you know if I have to be away from you for longer than a day or two.

2 – If you have patience with me and give me time to learn what you would like from me, I can promise you, you will never be disappointed.

3 – Trust me with your life and have faith in our future together. If I don’t feel that you honestly believe in me, I will suffer great emotional stress. My sense of self-worth is totally dependent upon your confidence in me.

4 – Don’t stay mad at me for long or confine me to a cage to punish me. You have your friends, your job, and your recreation. I HAVE ONLY YOU!

5 – Talk to me about anything you want as frequently as possible. Even if I can’t comprehend your precise words, I can understand the meaning of what you’re telling me by the tone of your voice.

6 – Remember no matter how you treat me, I will NEVER forget it.

7 – When you consider raising your hand to hit me, remember I have teeth that could break the bones in your hand, but I choose not to bite you.

8 – Before you scream at me for failing to respond to your commands as I usually do, take time to think about what might be wrong with me that would cause me to treat you differently. Maybe I haven’t been eating right or drinking enough water. Or maybe my age is catching up with me and I just can’t do what I used to do.

9 – Take good care of me when I get old. Someday you will be as old as me and you will see how it feels.

10 – Be there for me through good times and bad. Never say you can’t handle taking me to the vets for stitches or surgery. Nothing could make me feel worse. Everything in my life is easier for me to deal with when I have you standing by my side. Remember my love for you is unconditional and it will last for your entire life.

I LOVE YOU HONEY BUN! PLS STAY HEALTHY AND STRONG. I PROMISE I WONT DESERT YOU NO MATTER HOW MUCH PROBLEMS YOU GIVE (STEPPING ON UR SHIT AND THEN WALKING IN MY ROOM) OR HOW IRRITATING YOU ARE (ALWAYS BOTHERING ME WHEN IT'S AFTER 7PM FOR YOUR DINNER OR DISTURBING ME WHEN I'M STUDYING FOR EXAMS OR SLEEPING). YOU CANT TALK AND UNDERSTAND WHAT I'M SAYING BUT I ALWAYS IMAGINED THAT U COULD.ALTHOUGH SINCE YOU'RE 1 YRS OLD U'VE BEEN SLEEPING FOR MORE THAN 18 HOURS A DAY. I ENJOY JUST WATCHING AND DISTURBING YOU WHEN U'RE SLEEPING. U'LL ALWAYS BE MY NO.1 PUPPY NO MATTER HOW OLD UGLY SMELLY FAT U ARE. I LOVE YOU, ALWAYS (NO FULL STOP CAUZ THERE'S NO END TO OUR LOVE)

2010-11-12T23:02:00.003+08:00

On my way home i saw this lady who hangs around in tamp mart sometimes crying at the stairway at some void deck near tm. She was just sitting there and crying. I wanted to just put my arm around her and to comfort her. but didnt dare. so i just walked slowly, away from her.
i told myself not to be a bystander and sometimes, dont be afraid to do something for ppl i dunt noe. like helping elder ppl carry their grocery bags blah blah. but i just cant make myself take that step. on tv we see these kind hearted ppl who could goes to the elderly home, disabled home blah blah to help these ppl. and to spend their extra time and money to help unfortunate ppl. but i find it hard to even to extend my hand to someone in need.
is there reallie oure kindness in this world? or is it just that ppl just put up a face where their kind act is just a way for them to receive praises from someone.
it's scary how i see ppl now. met woofy today. and she was like.. what's ur prob. why are u acting in this way. i speak slower now. becaus i'm processing what i say. i dunt want them to judge me base on my action and my words. it's really tiring. but i dunt want this incident to happen ever again. i love u darling. i love u tat;s why i dunt want our friendship to be hurt or scraped or torn by my unintended actions or words which u may think otherwise. Although u sae our r/s is unlike others. and u have always loved me regardless of how i force and nag at u. that's why we will alwaes be one.. awww =) hahaa. u make me feel good

2010-11-11T01:26:00.003+08:00

Awkward on tues. after social lect wanted to scoot off b4 we meet. bt cauz meiting wanted to ask her grp mate smth i had to wait outside the lt for her. when she finally came out, wanted to leave. then........... (awkward). i havent been replying any of his calls or msges since sat. i mean i did tell him i think we need time off and shld just concentrate on the final exams. then i'll do a clean break. known him for bout 3 months now. and i had finally broken the non official thingy since 3 yrs ago. 20th oct was a mistake.

oh and on mon, met someone and was also a lil awkward. i dunnoe if she noes it yet but i dunnoe. mebbe i'll lose this friend as well. forget it.

i wanna go see a fortune teller. see if i'll have better luck nxt yr.

2010-11-07T16:53:00.002+08:00

wx keep saying it's nth to be upset about. and there's nth more he can say. wtf. i dunoe how to talk to u when u cant feel how i feel. or at least try.

i noe it's not a BIG deal. bt how will u feel when someone else says "stop leeching off" someone. it's a big deal when it comes from someone u thot u're good friends with. it matters when it comes from ur sis mouth. it matters becauz i nv meant it to be that way and i nv thot it is a prob.

u said u didnt think it was a serious matter. mebbe u're used to this kinda talk. bt i'm not. becaus i alwaes treat my friends with sincerity and nv thot i'm LEECHING off them. mebbe it's the word used. mebbe like wad i told u ytd, miscommunication b/w u and the one who msg me or miscommunication b/w me and her, or miscommunication b/w me and u. i reallie hope it's the miscommunication prob.

u may not realise but when we initially spoke, u said what u reallie felt. tat u feel that it's unfair and i'm taking adv of u. but after that, u said, u just dunnoe if u're doing the right thing for ME. u dont realise but it's obvious that u meant the first rather than the latter.

it's just a small prob. but it's this matter that make me realise how u see or how others see me.

i am posting this not because of any other reason but to remind myself that no matter how comfortable i feeel with anybody, u cant just 100% relax with the person, say watever u want, do whatever u want or just be myself. even if u noe the person for so long. u shld always keep the line there and be aware of how they think about u. will i be to rude, am i taking adv of her by asking her to do this, am i a leecher to her family members... seriously i'm not sacarstic here. this post is reallie to remind myself of this incident and to reallie tell myself to be careful.

u noe i got to think how u always act like u dunt mind, but so many things is going inside u. u have opinions about ur best friend too. things which i didnt think u will think about her, but u did. i mean u shld have trusted me a lil to say stuff like that but i dunnoe. like i said. thank u once again for teaching me not to be so stupid to judge ppl based on how they act. i remember u said i was innocent, to think of a lot of things only on the surface, guess u're right, becaus i nv guessed u will thik this way.

since sec 1 ya... i deleted ur no off my phone, my msn, facebook. i dunnoe if i will regret losing u as a frien for such a small matter. but seriously. this small matte showed me how to feel bout me as a whole. and i wont be able to be my real self around u anymore, cauz i'll be thinking, no i shld not be doing this saying this because she may think i'm a bloodsucker blah blah. and i dunt like to fake being someone else. u wunt even realise i'm not in ur life anyway. so we'll just be ex sch mates and current sch mates then. it's to protect myself from feeling lousy.

and oh u made me end my 2 weeks r/s. good thing. cauz i noe i cant count on him to be dere when i'm feeling low. cauz we just cant see things eye to eye like how i hope to. thanks for that too ya.

2010-11-06T23:42:00.002+08:00

hurt sad ashamed shocked hurt

We can nv be the same again. I lost my friend of 7 years. u make me think of what i am to other friends. i kinda hate you for making me feel so lousy. other than eewei no other friend made me cry this bad

2010-10-25T00:53:00.002+08:00

ytd received a msg from jj saying that he broke up with his us gf. i thot my mind will be full of " i told u so" but instead was reallie shocked cause he made me believe in that kinda r/s. they were together for more than a yr. last yr he even flew to washington dc to be with her. this tym he went there for 2 weeks and they broke up. this further made me question if real love is possible. when i was msging him on my way to orchard today, i saw this old couple, both were blind. as in literally blind. they were holding those long sticks and trying to make their way thru the crowd, supporting and holding each other. how can 2 person, who cant even see fall in love with each other. and despite all the difficulties that they had faced in their earlier life, they are still able to be together till now.. i dunnoe if they have children. but it's really touching to see how they interact with each other.
I really wonder if i will have this opportunity to have this kinda love once in my life. they say u;ll know when u meet the right person. but how will u noe it. will u ever meet such a person among all the others that passes by ur life??

2010-08-05T22:28:00.003+08:00

part 2

walkin out of the stadium, was just thinkin about wad to eat later when i realised my hand was very free. i left my laptop in the stadium! i ran. i mean RAN RAN back. slippers flew out bt i didnt care. picked them up and continue running! went back to where i last sat, the toilet, NTH!!

pushed and knocked so many ppl on the way bt i didnt give a damn. my mind was full of images of angrie parents, money flying out of my pocket, losing all my pics, my music files, my other files. ahHH! asked a stadium staff and they asked me to go to the stadium's office. one of the guy who was also sitting rows above me a while ago saw me and he told me that he found my laptop and brought it to the swimming complex office. omg. on hearing this my heart heaved a huge sigh of relief. while walking and running to the stadium and office i kept thinkin of possiblities of me seeing my laptop bag at the spot where i just left, or finding it in the toilet. was so scared when i didnt see it. and another possiblility of me askin the office staff and they said no they dunt have any report loss item. lots running through my mind. bt luckily, so so so so so lucly for me. that staff is so honest and kind. he even delievered it to the swimming complex office cauz he said thatthe stadium office staff are not to be trusted. i am so so so grateful to him! finally saw my turqoise laptop bag in the swimming complex office. i am so so lucky! thanked that staff so many tyms, then left.

in the bus going home, near tamp library i saw this old man w.o an arm and holding on to a walking stick and bags of groceries. the fistt thing that came to my mind. god helped me find my laptop. and now here is someone who can use my help. if i get off this idiot seat and off the bus to help him, he will be happy, grateful and i will do smth good. nt that i wan him to be grateful bt it's like god helped me when i needed his help. nw here is someone who needed my help, i shld help. bt i didnt. i'm feeling so sos so guilty! i promised myself i wouldnt be a bystander again. bt i did it just todae. i reallie have to stop living in my own world and just put my hand out to help those who need help and stop being so selfish! so much thinking, remembering, typing and everything today. i'm so tired. bt i noe i have to type this out. everything EVERYTHING which is in my head. i've been typing non stop for an hour now. i'm not writing my blog for ppl to see or to update them bout anything. it's for me myself and i. for me to read and remmeber what i've gone thru and to remind yself of some of the things which i noe i will forget bt dunt wanna lose memory of. like my pri sch stuff and wadever. ok. i have to stop. my head and hand is not coordinating and i feel like i'm a bit on air. and my grammar and sentence construction is bad here. i just threw in wad's in my head w.o caring bout the eng. so i hope i will still be able to understand wad i wrote 10 yrs from now.

2010-08-05T20:57:00.002+08:00

went for tution today as usual, earlie in the morning. cauz i told my parents that my sch starts this week, and today daddy's at hm, and he saw me leaving the hse at 8am, so i cant go back immediately after tution, cauz i'm suppose to be in "school". went to teadot to finish reading my storybook and to watch my hk drama. i brought my laptop just to watch my drama. stayed there for bout 2 plus hours before leaving.

walked to the interchange, suddenly thot of going to the stadium, cauz today's thurs and i remembered that my pri sch athlethics team trains on tues and thus (usual practice since i was in pri sch, dont they ever change the days). reached the stadium, saw lil gongshang athletes, ahh.. i miss those trg days. saw my coach! he's still coaching my sch's track team. bt didnt recognise any of the teachers. mrs ow wasnt there, ms fadzillah, mr derrick yeo and ms wong meiling wasnt there too ( i rememb all of them). like mrs ow said, new bloods in the track team...

i'm always missing my pri sch track days, and hsc netball days. bt for sec netball, it was because i had so much fun with the game itself and my friends. bt for my pri sch track days, i'm always missing it cauz it's one of my biggest achievements. national competition, national awards. was good at it, that's why i liked it. i hated the tough trgs back then, i even lied to teachers and my mother cauz i didnt wanan undergo those tough trgs.

(retrack..)
i used to hate trgs. i went for the first month or so but soon i hated to go for trgs cauz i see my friends having fun, playing, relaxing and i have to wake up earlie to go to the stadium and have to run those long distances which was reallie reallie very tiring.
so i wanted to skip trgs, bt didnt dare to tell my mom, so i leave the hse earlie "for trgs", then sit through the whole 291 journey, all the way to tampines blk 800++, or even went to my friend's hse in pasir ris, or mebbe just wonder around. when it's time for trg to end i'll go home as usual. so my mom will think i just finished trg, bt in actual fact my attendance is zero. cauz my p4 form teacher is also my track teacher, she PAGED my mom and told her that i was absent for many weeks. bt all these while my mom thot i was at trg, so she dragged me to the stadium, and SLAPPED me in front of my teachers and friends. it was damn embarassing. wad's worse, cauz i dreaded trg, i cried, bt still ran. cauz mebbe i didnt warm up enough or mebbe cauz it was long since i've trained, when running 400m, i almost fainted. mrs ow then took me to the field and took my shoes out for me and walked with me on the field while holding onto me and askin me to keep breathing. i can still rememb the feeling. everything was WHITE and breathing was hard, felt weak all over, just wanna collapse to the ground bt mrs ow kept holding onto me and asking me to walk. felt better then and she began to encourage me to continue trg and to just try out in the competition. smth like tat. i liked her then. she's my sch's discpline headmistress, so she's reallie fierce, so i didnt reallie expect her to talk to me in that way. it's after that day that i went on to train for about 3 month or so b4 my first national competition. others had to train for more than 9 months, bt i took onli 3 months to clinch a national 4th in the 800m.
if u're good at smth, u'll tend to have the motivation and energy to carry on with it cauz u noe u're good at it and will do well in it. so i continued despite my earlier intention to quit after my first competition. p5 national 2nd. boosted my ego so SO much that i was over confident. too proud. thot i didnt need to give it all, thot i didnt need those trgs, thot i could win again with just using 80% of my potential. while others gave it all, i was complacent.

p6 competition, bishan stadium was packed with competitiors, parents, supporters, principals blah blah. it was just 800m HEATS. HEATS. and the once nationa 4th and 2nd holder cant even get into the finals. before my race i was thinkin that this is gonna be my last yr here cauz i sweared i wouldnt run competitively again in sec sch. so i told myself just relax and dunt need to push myself. HEATS i still had the energy and time to turn back to look at other competitors while running. after the race, everyone was so so tired they couldnt even speak properly, bt i walked off the track w.o any difficulty and went over to the milo truck to chat with my friend, w/o abny difficulty. i didnt even push myself to 80%. i didnt. i just thot i'd runa nd that's it. came in 2nd, bt cauz only top 16 could enter finals, i didnt get to top 16 even though i was 2nd in my heats. nt only was i shocked, my teachers and friends were also shocked.
clearly in my mind i remember. on the bus to bishan stadium, the teachers were going around to talk to competitors to ask them not to be nervous, and wad kinda strategy to use blah blah. then when it was my turn the teachers skipped me. mr yeo even said, aiya this one no need, she should noe wad to do. they were so confident that i could clinch another trophy. even when i came in 2nd in my heats. mr derrick yeo still asked me to hurry up prepare for my finals. everyone thot i could do it, or the least get into the finals. when i went down to double cfm the finals list, i was so so scared. bt nt reallie upset that i cant win the trophy, bt wad will other ppl think, wad will mrs ow think. went back to our stand and there i saw mrs ow and other teachers there, i even pulled one of my friend to ask if the teachers knew that i didnt get into the finals. they knew. and mrs ow didnt even take a look at me then. she avoided any kinda eye contact with me and pretended that i wasnt there. i knew she was disappointed. i felt reallie small and inferior then. that day i had other races. 4*400m and 4*100m relay. we got into the finals for 4*100m bt not 4*400. in the bus, which changed to a small van as compared to a big bus when we were goin there, was real small cauz our races ended the latest. in the bus my team mates were reallie sad cauz we didnt qualify for 4*400. bt i told them it's ok, at least we got into 4*100. after saying this, mr derrick yeo, my nice friendly and not-fierce teacher shouted at me. i will nt forget what he said. in the small van where there were lesser than 15 ppl, he shouted: of course it's ok with u, u're over complacent and nothing matters to u, 800m also like that, 4*400 also like that, dont u noe that everyone was so confident u could do it, MRS OW was so sure u could. bt becauz of ur complacent that u have disappointed everyone, hw are u gonna face mrs ow.
i was quiet throughout the journey back to tampines. embarassed, sad, scared, shocked, inferior.

bt i can proudly say that for the 4*100m (days after that scolding) i gave my 100%. i nv regretted.

my life now is still as wad my teacher said. i nv take things seriously. nv gave my best. the things which i realllie can say i gave in my fullest i can reallie count them:
-my first 800m race in p4
-p5 800m race
-p6 4*100m
- actuallie i usually do my best for relays (mebbe cauz it's only 100m??)
-O levels
-SOME netball matches
-some other not so significant events, which are also countable

today's trip to the stadium brought back so many memories. pri sch memories. others may not rememb much bout their pri sch days. bt for me. mypri sch days wasnt that normal. it was reallie a lesson to be learnt. and it was my biggest achievement in life till now. O levels was also an achievement. only these 2. i'm reallie proud of these 2 things. it was those times which i reallie can say i am successful. and i was the best tat i could be. tat's why i keep thinkin bout those times. bt i noe that we must look forward and not keep looking back, bt i reallie wonder if i could get that same kinda sense of achievement i had back in those days. too much wories and concerns bothering ppl of this age that i realie wonder if those carefree days are long over. sigh

end of part 1 of today's reflections.

2010-07-22T22:08:00.002+08:00

todae my lil girl ask me when am i gonna stay until. and i told her 10.45. and she was like...nono.. it's when u're gonna stop tutoring me, is it gonna be till this month. then i wanted to tell her till the end of my uni days which is mebbe another 2 or 3 yrs. bt then she said pri 6 pls. at least pri 6. i wanted to tell her it's impossible cauz i wont be able to tutor her after i graduate. bt i forced a smile and said. ya, sure, of course, why not?

sigh.. will miss her.. she's so sweet. she's smart, sweet, good and cute. ahh. perfect student. it's reallie pleasant to have ur student walk u to the door after lesson and then happily wave u goodbye saying hope nxt week comes quickly cauz u're gonna come here again. and then extends her hand out of the gate to wave to u till u're in the lift. ahhh... it reallie makes me so happy to noe that they're enjoying my lesson with them. u noe it's nv enjoyable to have EXTRA lessons.

the other girl girl, i dunt like her as much. she's nt so smart, sweet, good and cute. bt she's nice. at first i wasnt looking forward to her tution, bt after ytd, mebbe i think things are improving. she was reallie closed up and not responsive in the first 2 lessons. although she did laugh and have fun when we did some testing games. bt still.... the feelings very diff from my first girl. bt this other girl... wad can i say about her.. she's... i dunnoe. just i dunt like her as much as my first girl. bt i still like her, just a lil bit. bt she will also ask when's our next lesson, and looks happy when i come over. bt... nt as happy as the frst.

why do i keep comparing these 2 girls. they're different! so i shld just stop comparing!

bt it's reallie hard not to.. cauz u noe, when u like someone a lot u tend to look forward to meeting them. i'm a lazy lazy person. for me to wake up so earlie in the morning or even get out of the hse to go "work" isnt easy. so u noe, if i like the person i'll have the motivation to want that person to do well and will put in more effort blah blah....

bt anyway, first round of cors result came out todae. and i got 3 mods alreadie, didnt get the other one.. hmm. 2 more. and i'm so tempted to just take 4 cauz i can have more extra tym off, bt will still have to pay back the mods by takin special sems. hmm.. cors has started. this means sch's starting. it's reallie fast.. just 2 more weeks.... and i'm looking VERY forward to e start of aug when i get my allowance to go shopping!! i have everything worked out alreadie, how much to spend on clothes, shoes, bag, vitamins (oh, just realised my eye nutrition is left with just 2 more pills, and my memore's left with 7 =( so much to buy!!!)

and i accidentally hit jessie's head with my elbow just now. it wasnt my fault! was making her bed for her and she got all excited and kept runing around me. i didnt noe she was beside me! it's her fault! and she's breathing so heavily now? it wont be cauz of her "head injury" rite??

2010-07-21T20:58:00.002+08:00

had 3 days tution straight. tmr's my last one for the week. and there's no light in my room right now. my main overhead light or whatever u call it, it's down. less than 3 months of installing. i'm using my beside yellow lamp now. and was marking my kid's work with this stupid lamp. oh.. my eyesight's gonna get so bad.
hw am i gonna handle my 4 days tution when sch reopens. i cant even make myself go to class. hmm.. i'm gonna sleep by 2 today. i'm gonna try my hardest. it's hard for me to go to bed b4 4am. used to 5-6am to 5pm sleeping hours.

cant wait for aug so i can have my allowance! i wanna go shopping alreadie!bt i wunt have much this mnth. gotta pay my bills, buy vitamins, buy essentials such as a new bag and shoes. i dunt enjy buying shoes and bags. i like buying clothes. not shoes and bags. seriously. i'm kinda fretting about wad bag should i get. i dunt like to buy bags, like seriously. i kinda HATE it. and i wanna dye my hair. and get my nails and toe nails done. but $$$. if i spend on my hair and nails, i wld have lesser money for clothes. and i need more clothes. oh i cleared up my wardrobe. threw a lot of clothes away. those i noe i wunt wear is out of my wardrobe. those that i bought becauz it's nice bt i wunt be wearing to sch or out cauz it looks like it's for parties or clubbing or wedding dinners i kept it in another drawer. so seems like those i will wear to sch or normal outing is reallie little.
oh. it's not that i like branded stuff. it's just that the quality of those $10-20 shirts are reallie bad ( i was once a bugis and far east shopper ) and they either tore or faded after wearing once or twice. when i was young i went for brands, then went for cheap far east clothes, then after a very bad experience of my shirt giving me 2 big holes at the back in PUBLIC! i went back to brand.
bt it's nt reallie branded. i hav no money for high end brands, just.. middle range.. so it's not too bad. ok. and i'm earning money from tution now so i should have the freedom to buy the things that i like. cant't i?

one of my "frien" commented that todae. met her after tution and she was saying bout that. i admit i;m materialistic. i dont deny that. bt i'm nt a hypocrite and i can swear to god i treat the ppl around me sincerely. the things i use and wear will not affect hw i treat ppl. unlike u who dresses like a big fat flower. wad's this, u wore a flower shirt, flower high waisted skirt and a small "hat" hair accesory. u look like a freaking walking clown. u should just paint ur face white and lips flaming red. i dont even like u, bt cauz u were so called "upset" so i took tym to meet u and it's all becauz i was feeling nice. u have no friends so i went to meet u. trust me, if u keep up with that attitude of urs this will be our last meeting. dont they have a saying " people change" why are u the same 10 yrs ago and the same 10 yrs now. oh no, u're worse off!

f you

2010-07-16T01:49:00.002+08:00

my little girl shyann's so sweet. only spent less than 8 hours with her altogether and we're liking each other so much. hahaa. she's my first tution girl after 2 years of not tutoring anyone. went to her hse on 6th july at 8pm at dokota. At first was all awkward and stuff. then we played the addition subtraction game to heat things up a little bit and it worked! 2nd tution was in the morning. had fun again. didnt dread it..surprisingly. and the min i left her hsethat morning she msged me say bye bye. hahaa. isnt she cutee! then the next day she msged me good morning and good nite. hahaa. cute lil girl. easy to teach cauz she listens and does her work. all her lessons are in the morning and it's hard for me to climb out of bed since i only go to bed at 5am in the morning. but still, i dunt mind cauz i noe i'll have a good and fun tym with her. take 291, green line mrt, circle line, dakota, blk 62, 6th floor, enter her hse, climb stairs, turn right, close door, on air con. and we can start playing around. hahaa. got a lot of tution offers lately, pri 3 $25/hr. nt bad huh. bt cauz cant take too much students due to my not cooperative time table. wanted to give shyann up for the 25/hr bt dunt think all tution will have the chance of being so fun. so will stick with shyann. =)
OH AND SHE GAVE ME A WINNIE THE POOH NOTEBOOK TODAY CAUZ SHE SAW WINNIE THE POOH IN MY FILE SO SHE WENT TO SCH AND BOUGHT IT FOR ME. AND THE THING IS, WE ONLY MET 4 TIMES *1.5HRS. hahaa.

Another girl, laura. hmm. she's not as cute literally and figuratively. At pasir ris dr 6, one stop b4 hsc =) (i miss hsc, i miss netball, i miss my friends there, i miss netball) anywae, she's more shy compared to SHYann (ironic huh) nt as fun. bt still, nt tat bad la. all i remember from our first tution on 14/7 was that she's pri 3 and she has a ipod touch and the latest samsung hp. and tat her ipod touch is jailbreak-ed. that's all. not much from this girl. bt we'll see on mon.

Another boy, Elliot. is crazy and crazy. i'm not taking him up. went on 14/7 to tutor him p2 chi. he's crazy. when i stood outside his door, i could hear screams, shouts from outside. and he hates chi. and i mean hate like HATE. he's currently doin p1 chi assesment and he can not know how to match pics and simple han yu ping ying. and after bout 1hr he just shouts and screams and runs outside complaning he;s tired and he hates chi. he keeps begging me if we can switch to doing maths and eng instead. 20/hr and it's reallie not worth my effort. and i was so nice and patient with him until the last 30 mins. the first hr i used every resort i could think of to make him not scream and shout. and i kept talkin to him (eng, chi) and we only did like a few pages of his p1 chi assesment. that's how bad it is. and he can only make it on wed nite. and judging from my timetable it;s a lil inconvenient. so i'm gonna drop him.

so i'm justtaking 2 girls. and i can have more than 700 (plus my allowance) for nxt nxt month. cauz the agency's taking 50% for the first month =(

tat's for tution. didnt blog for quite a while cauz i was too lazy to. sab and yushu;s back from their trip. YES SAB I MISS YOU TOO! hahaa. i just read ur blog. 14 days a lil too long for me if i were to go on a trip. got my lil baby to think about. i cant even stand the 2 nights on the cruise w/o her.
oh ya. about doggie. i kept thinking about that FUCKING woman who hits her puppy dog. it's a PUPPY, they have teething stage too so they tend to wanna bite smth. and fyi dogs dunt talk human languange. how can u keep askin a dog "u wanna bite this, yes or no, yes or no, answer me!" and when the dog just looks at u u beat the dog. it's alreadie forced to the corner and u use a broom like thing to hit the FACE?? wtf is tat. even if u wanna train the dog u should nv just resort to violence. teach properly and wtf is it with the face. hit the buttock or smth where there's some fats and protection. nt the face where u can poke ur stupid brrom into its eye. when she hits the dog,the dog squeaked, oh sorry, the title is "SIngapore woman whack and hit dog" smth ike that. pls go youtube and view this video. and when u see her on the street, if i see her on the street i'll definitely step or trip or scold her. it's not against the law. if u do it "unintentionally" i can reallie imagine the dog weeping at nite (they do cry, weep!) and bruises and injuries on its little body. it's reallie just a small puppy. even when jessie does her biz in my mom's room and she steps on it, she teaches her properly. and she uses the newspaper on the buttock. and she dosent hit her till she shreaks. she tells her it's wrong and tells her where to do her biz at the correct place. not ask jessie if she noes she's wrong, as if jessie can asnwer her. so fed up and upset with that fucking woman. ugly bitch. rot in hell.

2010-06-22T22:46:00.003+08:00

today's tues 22nd june. sat's my birthday. 20th birthday. I'm goin shopping! cant wait! going to town to shop then having lunch with my colleagues. hmm. not celebrating with friends this yr. cauz there's no one. this is e worst yr for me in terms of celebrations. chinese new year? didnt celebrate it at all cauz my mom and dad has to work. didnt visit anyone. Valentine's? didnt reallie enjoyed it as much as previous yrs. cauz..i dunnoe, mebbe wrong person wrong time wrong place. yep, mebbe just these 2 occasions. my bdae this yr not celebrating with friends or loved one or family. no loved one now. family? hmm. might celebrate late, mebbe on 28 mon, mebbe mebbe. friends? i dunnoe to celebrate it with who. it's been kinda long since celebrated it with friends. mebbe 4 years nv celebrate with friends. it's always with that special person or another special person. so i forgot how's it like to celebrate with friends. with a big grp?? it's tiring cauz u'll have to entertain everyone. small group? i dunt have a small group of friends where i like everyone. it's someone from this group, someone from that group, so ya. i have no real good group of friends. bt i dunt mind. it's been long since i've blogged so i'm typing this post. happy birthday to me in advance!

2010-06-22T22:33:00.002+08:00

Time From To Message
21/6/2010 11:14:54 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- hey jo
21/6/2010 11:14:56 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- jus wanna tell u
21/6/2010 11:15:04 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes hey hey
21/6/2010 11:15:06 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- how proud i am tt i know u
21/6/2010 11:15:11 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- wah scare me
21/6/2010 11:15:18 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes haaha
21/6/2010 11:15:21 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- i meant this to be an offline msg one
21/6/2010 11:15:24 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes ok
21/6/2010 11:15:30 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- pretend ur not here
21/6/2010 11:15:34 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- dont reply me
21/6/2010 11:15:36 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes then just treatit that i'm nt here
21/6/2010 11:15:36 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes ok
21/6/2010 11:15:38 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes i go offline
21/6/2010 11:15:39 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes bye
21/6/2010 11:15:43 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- ok
21/6/2010 11:15:45 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- start again
21/6/2010 11:15:48 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- hi jo
21/6/2010 11:15:52 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes wait
21/6/2010 11:15:54 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes one min
21/6/2010 11:15:56 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes hahaa
21/6/2010 11:15:58 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- URGH
21/6/2010 11:16:07 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- i loss all the feeling alrdy
21/6/2010 11:16:33 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- testing
21/6/2010 11:16:39 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- ok
21/6/2010 11:16:41 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- hi jo
21/6/2010 11:16:49 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- i jus wanna let u know
21/6/2010 11:16:54 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- i am damn proud to know U!
21/6/2010 11:17:13 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- jus now when i was bathing(i dunoo y when i was bathin)
21/6/2010 11:17:24 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- i sudenly rmb how we use to play netb together
21/6/2010 11:17:32 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- no matter hw busy
21/6/2010 11:17:41 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- we will run dw to the parade square
21/6/2010 11:18:13 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- whether its durin exam period we nv miss any trg together
21/6/2010 11:18:19 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- n the time when we had interclass
21/6/2010 11:18:24 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- n we both play
21/6/2010 11:18:44 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- gainest all the other classes n get first
21/6/2010 11:19:03 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- it was damn happy moments we share i think i will nv forget
21/6/2010 11:19:08 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- EVER
21/6/2010 11:19:10 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- haha
21/6/2010 11:19:12 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- ya tts all
21/6/2010 11:19:17 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- jus wanna tell u tt
21/6/2010 11:19:20 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- n oh ya
21/6/2010 11:19:25 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- i didnt like u at all durin sec 1
21/6/2010 11:19:27 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- HAHAHAHHA!!
21/6/2010 11:19:28 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- ok
21/6/2010 11:19:31 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- tts all
21/6/2010 11:19:37 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- (K)\
21/6/2010 11:19:42 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- but i rly love u now
22/6/2010 2:50:31 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes hey
22/6/2010 2:50:42 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes i nv will forget those times
22/6/2010 2:51:03 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes both of us trg w/o water with vivian
22/6/2010 2:51:18 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes and then jrs quit
22/6/2010 2:51:21 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes hahaa
22/6/2010 2:51:40 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes and u still rememb our competitions
22/6/2010 2:52:15 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes how we second pass in the D cauz i cant shoot
22/6/2010 2:52:19 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes hahaa
22/6/2010 2:53:16 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes and once when we werent put in the main 7 for the first 2 rounds cauz vivan put siti in and then when they screwed up
22/6/2010 2:53:31 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes she told us let's see hw u 2 screw up
22/6/2010 2:53:49 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes bt we didnt! we pulled up the score
22/6/2010 2:53:52 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes rememb rememb??
22/6/2010 2:54:12 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes no doubt times in hsc were really a great tym for us both
22/6/2010 2:54:20 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes mjc times werent bad too
22/6/2010 2:54:28 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes at least for me i think it isnt
22/6/2010 2:54:38 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes cauz at least i had u there with me
22/6/2010 2:54:49 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes i hated the mjc netball team
22/6/2010 2:55:00 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes bt when u quit squash and joined netball
22/6/2010 2:55:07 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes i was really really glad
22/6/2010 2:55:49 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes i admit i was a lil selfish when i encouraged u to quit squash
22/6/2010 2:56:06 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes bt i reallie enjoyed ur company and want u there in netball with me again
22/6/2010 2:56:23 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes although we werent enjoying ourselves as much in mjc netball team
22/6/2010 2:56:48 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes bt it was alrite for me cauz when u were there i just stayed with you and enjoyed the game with u
22/6/2010 2:57:43 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes bt for me i not only enjoed our netball days
22/6/2010 2:57:52 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes bt the days we spent together
22/6/2010 2:58:09 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes meeting everyday for sch
22/6/2010 2:58:21 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes at the mrt station, on the mrt
22/6/2010 2:58:39 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes i reallie enjoyed your company as my good friend
22/6/2010 2:58:44 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes it's a lil long
22/6/2010 2:58:52 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes bt i love u
22/6/2010 2:58:55 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes just so u noe
22/6/2010 2:59:17 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes think in my life till now
22/6/2010 2:59:25 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes in terms of good friends
22/6/2010 2:59:31 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes i had 2
22/6/2010 2:59:36 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes first is ee wei
22/6/2010 2:59:51 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes bt that's a lil disappointing...till nw
22/6/2010 2:59:59 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes and the second is YOU
22/6/2010 3:00:14 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes regardless if u feel the same
22/6/2010 3:00:37 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes bt i dunnoe, i just feel that u're an impt frien to me
22/6/2010 3:00:57 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes facing competitions and exams together
22/6/2010 3:02:14 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes i really enjy the times we were walking on the same route, supporting and accompanying each other
22/6/2010 3:02:20 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes sigh
22/6/2010 3:02:25 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes miss those time
22/6/2010 3:02:27 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes s
22/6/2010 3:02:33 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes i love u!
22/6/2010 3:02:39 PM -jOlene- be the happy electrodes ='(
22/6/2010 3:40:23 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- haha i think i rmb its the time when vera n siti got put in den they cant shoot in a single damn ball at all den i cried o smth right.
22/6/2010 3:40:37 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- miss the times so much. n YES I HATE MJ netb
22/6/2010 3:40:43 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- can see thru the commitments
22/6/2010 3:40:55 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- notice we didnt even have any drive to go trg in mj
22/6/2010 3:41:01 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- so unlike hsc
22/6/2010 3:41:08 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- i love u too!
22/6/2010 3:41:16 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- ur a rly special fwen(:
22/6/2010 3:41:19 PM be the happy electrodes -jOlene- RLY!

Mary =) i love u!
wanna keep this post cauz msn will suddenly delete my conv history for no reason.
although we dont meet up alreadie, if we keep the other person in our hearts, we are still good friends.

2010-06-01T00:54:00.002+08:00

my pri sch friend is married? yes, married MARRIED. as in wedding dinner, wedding rings, wedding cake, marraige certificate MARRIED, not the i-love-you-you-love-me-ok-let's-change-our-status-to-married-on-facebook, they're MARRIED. she's damn smart, she went to dunman high, now in shanghai studying. and she's married on the 29 may 2010, which is on sat, just a few days ago. her change of status showed up on my facebook updates. omg. cannot believe it. she's the kind of goody good girl, studies hard, cant even imagine her ...with her bf, MARRIED?? cant believe it. still in shock. cant even watch my videos w/o being distracted by that news. is it a shotgun?? or is it that both of them just love each other TOO TOO much to bear not being in a more stable and recognised r/s.

anyway, i got B- for my psychology stats! woohoo!! that means i can major in psych. =) thank you lord jesus christ! i promise i'll go to church 10 times. i will do it!

ok.. after expressing some of my thots about my friend being married at 19, i'll resume watching my videos.

oh ya. i'm shock because she's not that kinda girl tt likes going out at night, or ah lian or those u noe, I DUNNOE HOW TO SAY IT! but she's not that kind of your arverage typical friend. she's damn smart, a good girl and just... u noe. innocent, study type, a good friend blah blah. but anyway she's married. so i just wanna wish u a good life and stay happy and have a loving and happy marraige.

2010-05-14T22:01:00.002+08:00

14 may. was invited to a bdae party. bt yet i'm home typing this post. just came back after meeting my ex colleague. she is so sweet! becauz the retail price outside is so expensive so i got her to buy from my ex company. it's more than half the price cheaper =) and on top of that she even came down to tpjc to meet me and then walked me home. so sweet =) sometimes it's reallie better to have such ppl in ur life rather than friends of your own age who only contacts you when they need you or when they dont have anyone in their life to bother. and when they finally have someone they just not contact you.
previously i reallie was damn scared that i will not have any close friends at my wedding. bt. after these few months. feel like i shouldnt be putting the effort to stay in contact with them just to make sure that we will remain friends till we grow up. cauz it's tiring and stupid. so i've decided to just let nature take it's course.

2010-04-04T20:31:00.001+08:00

i want a ipod touch

2010-04-01T21:40:00.002+08:00

was reallie worried ytd. stats test 30%. and u noe wad. out of 30 marks i only know the 5 mark qn. and not ocnfident bout it. mebbe can get 2 or 3 marks from tat. bt the rest of the 25 marks, 4 qns. i dunt even noe which chpts were they from. i hate open book tests. although u have to rememb stuff for closed book, bt the qns will be much much easier. i onli have 4 mods this sem and yet i am not coping. why is it that it's my 2nd sem and i'm still not accustomed to uni life? or am i too slack? wasnt that hardworking in jc, bt at least u have continuous studying from 8am till bout 3pm. u sit there and all u do is study. walk to lects, tuts, bt ur brain is constantly in the "study mode". is uni diff? or is it that i'm not doin it. i think cauz u only have 3-4 hrs of lessons a week for each mod, so even if u take 5 mods, u only attend sch for bout 3-4 hrs a day. compared to the 6 hrs in sec, jc. and they dunt reallie care if u pay attention or not.

reallie scared for this round of exams. just checked my timetable. my first paper is on 24 april! 23 more days. and i'm not ready for it!
and my stats. if i dunt get at least a B, i cant major in psy. and if i dunt major in psy, wad am i to do for the rest of my few yrs in uni. omg. cant even think bout it. so i'm reallie gonna go for my lessons for 2 last weeks. and i'm not gonna go out.

2010-03-26T02:01:00.002+08:00

today, 26 march is mary's bdae! sent her a msg. and i'm so touched by her replie! so touched i'm gonna cry! was smiling when i read the top part of the msg, then the bottom half i was like damn sad. why are we in diff schs! why is our life gonna be so different. she's gonna work in a hospital and i'm most likely not goin to, unless i make it to become a psychologist. i reallie didnt know about the early registration for her course. if she told me then, i think i reallie will be in her course now. it isnt bad to be a physiotheraphist, good prosepects, good pay. people you meet wunt be as bad as compared to the ppl u'll meet in a office. and for 3 to 4 yrs, i can be with my good good friend. and friends that go through university life together will most likely be able to keep in contact for the rest of your life. that will be about 10 yrs together in the same sch. and we can arrange our classes together, go to sch together, go and study together.
she is reallie the only one friend which i can confidently say i was close to since sec 2, or sec 3. known her since sec 1. thru netball. i didn't reallie like her then. still rememb we paired up for pair ball work, her throw was hard and INaccurate! hahaa. then i didnt wanna partner her for the next few weeks. got to know her much much much better was when we were partnering GA GS. omg. our co-operation was, one word, flawless! i cant shoot, she can. i am faster, she's slower. she's tall, i'm shorter. we make up each other's weakness. and we always do the 2nd pass in the "D" and the defenders dunt even know what's goin out. it was all so fast and smooth =) sec 3 same class. but she had her friend, verna (or however u spell her name), bt we were close still. netball our link. trained under vivian. makes our bonding stronger. i dunnoe. anywae, we were good friends since sec 2.
jc was diff. one class away, bt still, we meet up sometimes to go home together. OH YA! we go to school together every morning. ya ya. hahaa. how can i forget that. we;ll meet in the train or sometimes at pasir ris mrt. and we'll squeeze up the bus to mjc, then rush in the gate to make it JUST IN TIME, or sometimes, late. then we have netball. she transferred from squash halfway. good good. u dunnoe how happy i was at that time. i didnt like mjc netball team. not bonded. which is understandable. everyone has their own sec sch teams. and we're only playing together for the most a yr and a half. how to reallie bond. so maryann was my only companion in the team. we slacked together, played together, sweat together. we will talk on the phone for hours (since sec). ah i reallie miss the times we had together.
feel so screwed. i'm gonna flunk this semester. i'm not making new friends. i'm losing the old ones. u noe i expect to maintain the r/s with ppl bt i havent been in contact,and i expect the r/s to continue from where we left it off. bt it's reallie impossoble. because a r/s has to be worked on, you cant expect it to be pipping hot when it has been left in the cold for a long time.
I wanna meet my old friends. bt i'm scared at the same time, i dunnoe if we will have much to talk about, if we can still relate to each other, to know what the other person's talking about, to be able to get that feeling of closeness back. memories are beautiful bt it can be a painful thing to know that u had something once, bt no longer have it.

anyway, it's a long and emo post. bt i just got all that feeling from maryann's msg.
happy birthday maryann! i reallie do treasure u. i reallie do!

2010-03-15T16:48:00.003+08:00

u noe it's sad when u look so nice and pretty or handsome when u were young. and when u grow up, u just change and not look nice anymore. it's sad. a pri sch frien just added me on facebook. and omg. u noe he was reallie cute and good looking in pri sch. i was almost in love with him then. he was in track and was the head prefect in my sch. and i tink after pri sch he migrated or smth. then when i went to see his pictures. sigh.. he was reallie cute back then. nv expected him to change that much. looks like girls dunt change as much as guys. bt we do too. sigh.. missing the times when i can just wake up 10 mins b4 leaving the hse and just throw on my uniform, tie my hair up with a band and just leave the hse. or just eat and eat and eat and eat w/o havin to worry that it'll go to my tummy or my legs or my arms. THE TIMES...

2010-03-15T00:43:00.002+08:00

omg omg! do u realise it's the 3rd week of march 2010! it seems to me like it was just a week ago since i sent those happy 2010 new yr msges! omg. which means my semester is ending, which also means exams! omg. my marketing, econs textbook is so so UNTOUCHED. and my js course pack, i've only read a few pages! omg. so so so so so much things to do! bt i'm not doing it. sigh. since the first semester, i havent had the "i'm in school, i have to do my hw, have to go for lessons, have to study" mood. omg. screwed up my first yr and stil have 2. i'm seriously considering to just go for the 3 yr course. dunt tink the extra honours yr will make MUCH difference. it's still a degree. and the honours course is harder, cauz it's an extra yr and we'll be graded by classes. if i continue my kind of "studying" or "schooling" i think i'll be gettin the 3rd or 2nd lower class. which is equivalent to not getting an honours. so rather than be graded like that and waste an extra yr might as well just get a normal degree. BUT on the other hand, i wanna stay in sch longer cauz i dunt have to go to work =) hahaa. i noe i noe. it's a stupid thot. bt seriously, dunt u think it's better to be in sch, dunt have to face the politics and shit u'll face when working. although i noe i still have to face it, i just hope to drag it a lil. hahaa. stupid me bt yep, i dunt like a hard life. let's just hope. or I just hope that i get a nice, handsome, rich husband. sigh......

2010-03-04T20:46:00.003+08:00

awww.. 07s309

2010-02-26T21:53:00.002+08:00

i'm just realising that i'm slowly slowly losing friends and not gaining any. friends that are not in the same sch, not in the same faculty, not in the same course.. which is almost all. i dunt go to sch and when i do i just attend the lesson and leave, so how can i make new friends. bt i do realise that i reallie cannot like most of my friend's friends. i dunnoe why bt i'm starting to realise my social circle is getting smaller and smaller. close friends which i have known for a long time are slowly becoming the hi bye friends. and hi bye friends are still hi bye friends.
i know i do have a problem with ppl. i cant like ppl i dunt like and i cant pretend to like them because it defeats the purpose of having friends because u're suppose to be happy with them.
i cant seem to studie for more than 15 mins. i will read a few pages and then do smth else then go back to study and then be distracted then give up studyin cauz there's no pt. i'm lagging by so so much. i know it bt i'm not doin anythin. i know i shld stop whining and start doing it. i have so much tym on hand and i am onli taking 4 mods this sem bt i cant seem to handle it?! what's happening to me. i'm becoming this useless person whose social circle is diminishing. my future seems so bleak and dull now. where is the fire and the energy i had when i was in sec and jc??? it's all gone.
i seriously think i'm gonna have depression soon if this continues..or mebbe all this could come to an end.

2010-02-16T15:41:00.003+08:00

met him ytd. he got me a gift. after so many mnths we finally talked. bt it feels so so wierd. i dunnoe if it's becauz he's bored in camp and has no one else to go to or he reallie feels sorrie or wadever. i was 2nd guessing all thru ytd. went for lunch and movie at bugis then i went to the library at bugis to studie and he surfed the net. was kinda sweet to accompany me. bt as i was saying, i dunnoe wad he's thinking. went home, got online and talked to sk. and everything fell into place. i think it reallie marks the end of our wadever on off r/s becauz it finally got to me that i dunt want a life buoyant to get me thru just when i'm bored and low, bt i reallie want someone whom i love with all my heart and go thru all the ups and downs with. so ya. i sent him a msg ytd nite or todae morning. and till nw i havent gotten a replie. bt at least this tym i've cleared it on my part. it all depends on him now.

2010-02-10T23:46:00.003+08:00

left halfway during stats tutorial. i dunt understand a thing the lect was saying. sigh. looks like i have to spend the whole of nxt week on stats. went for mkt, japanese studies, econs tut todae. was late AGAIN for mkt lect so i sat behind, away frm my grp members becauz i didnt wanna sit right in front of the tutor with my blank paper. met my grp members after class for a lil while to discuss which company we're doin on and which dae to meet up nxt week. after that we left and slowly dispersed from the biz faculty. japanese studies tutorial was so funny! sat together with my grp and cauz we spent the tym ytd to do the outline for our project, we didnt read the readings for our tut. so we had to keep our mouth shut the entire tutorial. even jonathan kept mum the whole tym! nt exactly kept quiet bt we were talkin right in front of the teacher bout how nice OUR( his and mine) nails are. his GUY classmate painted his nails b4 our tutorial! so damn funnie. cauz we were nearest to the tutor, so the tutor kept looking at us wanting us to share our thots. and we kept loking dwn and pretended to point at each others notes like there's smth we just discovered. hahaa. Japanese studies is so fun! mkt is.... serious stufff. cant wait for our nxt grp meeting(JS and mkt). it's so fun doin projects! remembering pw days.... huijing! satiya! shermaine! oh and no t forgetting our "invisible" group member alex. we did videos and songs(yep songs) omg! i miss them so much! i miss my mjc uniform! i miss goin to pasir ris and to meridian with maryann.....

2010-02-04T09:38:00.002+08:00

in SCHOOL now.. didnt go ytd. missed one meeting, 2 tutorials and a lecture. anyway, i just wanna share what i saw on my way here. i passed by ngee ann secondary school and i saw a group of students standing at the carpark and trying to pretend that they are reading. they were away from the rest of the students in the basketball court for morning assembly. needless to say, they were late and had to be separated from the rest of their peers first. this reminded me of my days in hsc and mjc. being late in hsc, u had to fill in a form and prefects would be collecting them and telling u how many days or R&R(is it r&r??i forgot wad it's called.. hahaa. bt it's smth reflct and smth) or PC(personal care outside the hod) R&R u are in a room with the teacher and cannot do anything else except to reflct. smth like tat, i dunt have much impression of R&R alreadie. bt pc! i remember. i had lots of days of pc cauz of my hp. u just sign in at the benches outside the hod and do ur hw or wadever, just dunt make so much noise to make the teachers scold. it was much better than R&R. speaking bout being late, i wasnt late a lot of times in hsc. mebbe late for prefect duties, bt not reallie late for sch. bt i remember u have to stand in front of the flagpole and sing the national song anthem and sat the pledge when everyone's leaving class. and u have to sing, the stupid teacher have to hear ur voice.
mjc was different. ohhh. i've been late for more than 7 times each yr. more than tat cauz when i noe i'm late i'll just miss the first few lessons. being late in mjc, they'll scan ur ezlink card, so u cant cheat about the times u've been late. more than 3 times u have to sign in at the GO at 7.15 and more than i think 5 times see parent then i think after that is suspension of cca. i met the vice principal b4. so ya. i was late quite a lot of tyms. late in this case is when the national anthem is being played, they'll stop ppl from going into the parade square. so it's best to avoid this and gp a few lessons late, which u have to either ask someone to open the side gate for u or go in from the main gate which u will risk running into teachers cauz u'll pass by the GO. bt i miss those times...
ok. it's 9.53am, i better get to class
bye bye

2010-01-31T14:28:00.002+08:00

still 2 webcast from latest week left! and cauz i havent printed the notes from sch so.. i'm not too far back ya. bt i'm very far back in terms of readings. txtbooks, course pack( i havent even read a page from). oh and stats! oh my my, there's no webcasting, the lecturer lectures using an ohp and they finish one 400 plus page txtbook in just 2 lects. how am i gonna catch up when i so happen to miss that 2 lect he used to finish the txtbook. i dunnoe wad i'm sayin now. made a list of to-dos and it seems long.. it's stressful just looking at it. and noe wad. one of my mkt groupmate is so efficient that she sent us her proposal which is suppose to be discussed on wed. which means i have to do it too rite??? and i have so many tutorials to do. and a stupid assignment to hand in online todae. spent thurs(which i'm suppose to go to sch and i didnt), fri, sat doing meaningless things. sleeping, shopping(WINDOW), eating, watching tv, movies. omg. 3 daes wasted. i hate myself for alwaes doing this. bt i like it =)

2010-01-27T22:26:00.002+08:00

today was an interesting day. dragged myself out of bed at 8am and left hse bout 9.15. Thinking it will be a boring day i bought a magazine to entertain myself. i read and read on the crowded train. and when i looked up at the one beside me i saw him looking so intensely at someone or somewhere. i followed his gaze and saw a B and L. the L was taller and she was forcing her mouth on B. B tried to hint L not to bt L persisted. In the end B too was enjoying her sweet kiss from L and soon,i saw tongue! hahaha! nice show for a morning. But B seemed a lil shy. bt this didnt stop L from touching B's waist, face, back pocket, hands, arms ( and the cycle continues...) while B's msging or talkin on the phone. L kept trying to get B's attention by blowing into her ears, talking real closely to her face and stuf. When they moved from the door to the middle of the carraige, of course i wouldnt miss such a show, i moved too. close up, i think B's more attractive than L (other than the height) bt well it's nice to see couples so loving =) reminded me of W and S bt it was just a phase for me,i think....

Was late for mkt tut. first tym in biz faculty and i double, triple checked if i gt the right class cauz i dunt wanna barge into the wrong class like i did the first time last sem. correct class, lesson goin on, bt door was locked. so i sat outside for a while, was pondering if i still wanna attend the tut. bt cauz we're suppose to be assigned our grps and indv projs today, so i finally knocked and entered. first thing i did when i stepped in was to look for empty seats of course. and then glanced acorss the classroom of bout 20 plus ppl and 2 guys caught my attention. 120 and 90. after some introductions blah blah we were assigned to our grps and 90 was in the same grp as me, 5. such luck. 4 girls, 2 guys, 2 biz, 2 arts, 2 soc. anywae. interesting things happened and u noe wad..............i've got an sms!!
anywae. that's roughly wad happened todae. bt 90 is good good. hahaa. i'm supppose to be reading my stats bk and doin my tut for tmr. u noe wad. it's so so so so scary. a txtbook of more than 400 pgs and the stupid lect finished it withink 2 lects!!!! and the prob is i skipped tat 2 lects and now i have to complete the tut of 2 weeks from the entire bk! omg!

2010-01-12T14:38:00.002+08:00

skipped sch todae. 2nd semester first lesson! and charlene has to go alone =( she's so sweet to help me take the handout too... awww.... i'm gonna get her smth sweet. on top of her bdae present last yr(which i promise i'll give her by feb!)

nt goin to sch for this whole week. goin on cruise tmr till fri. bt i'll promise i'll start my revisions nxt week when i get to sch nxt week and buy all the necessary stuffSSS ( i hope i'll be able to do it!) i must maintain my CAP at MINIMUM 3.5 and get to honours yr and mebbe u noe, i hope i hope i can get another *** degree. i noe it's hard and mebbe i'll nt do it. bt it's a motivation for me now to work hard ya. so dunt keep pouring cold water on me!

ok. back to my show. bye bye

2010-01-02T12:30:00.002+08:00

NO MORE SUITES OR BALCONY CABINS! OMG. I DUNT WANNA STAY IN THE SMALL ROOM!!!BT IT'S EITHER THAT OR THE 2 NIGHTS RUSH(which i have to have a meal after ever 3 hours to finish trying all the restaurants) OR WAIT TILL AFTER FEB

2009-12-31T17:22:00.002+08:00

colleagues ask me to go party with them todae. bt nah. i rather stay hm to watch my sjm =) and i dunt reallie like to go those places with them. so... wierd? mebbe a lil. they play ons i play wad. ahahaa. and i usually go back b4 1am.
anywae, xmas been great. although i'm left with 4 bucks. bt i'm happy that it went well and it's over. hahaa. oh ya. to compensate me for not being to go overseas, i'm going on a cruise trip. bt lots of prob too. cauz too last min so leave application, sch reopening causes a lot of prob. wanted to go for the 9 nights trip bt mummy cant take leave during that tym and it's on 28th jan so i have sch. the 5 nights trip, my idiotic brother cant. 4 nights cant cauz it's during sch days. 3 nights i dunnoe yet. most likely this bt will have to skip sch for a few days and daddy have to arrange leave during the week where lots of his colleagues are on leave alreadie. so i dunnoe. the 2 nights one is the best cauz wunt affect my dad and bro and mom, bt i'm having classes on wed and thurs and fri so it's hard and i dunt wanna go malaysia only. bt my dad wants the balcony cabin and cauz it's too late alreadie so the 3 nights one dosent have the balcony cabins anymore bt the 2 nights has. bt i dunt mind the stupid balcony. it dosent make very much difference anywae. sigh.. so irritating. if it;s e 2 nights one actuallie i rather not go and spend those money i intend to spend on shopping. and for the 2 nights one i will have to skip 3 days of sch. for the 3 nights i'll only be skipping 2. we'll see.

sch's starting and i must pull up my socks this sem and nxt sem in order to double major. and then mebbe i can get my law degree after?? nth is impossible cauz I+M+POSSIBLE! ahahaaa. we'll see how i go this sem first.

NEW YEAR RESOLUTION/PROMISE 2010

i promise i will try nt to skip sch and even if i noe i will i will try to minimise the skippingSSS and i will read up my notes or txtbk or wadever sort and will not leave it till the following week is the exam. i will not allow myself to skip tutorials even if i skip the lecture. i will do my assignments and project before waiting till the very last day to complete the assignment. i will maintain the cap of at least 3.5 and will love my dog even more this yr. i will try to save money every month of mebbe 10 a mnth?? hahah!

2009-12-21T12:12:00.002+08:00

sat went to celebrate my first christmas of 2009. went to orchard to meet the my senior before the belated birthday boy and his gang arived. went to have cheese fondue at the famous la fondue at dempsey. OMG it was heaven! if u havent tried a fondue u should reallie make ur way down now. la fromage delicieux! bt the price is a bit too too pricey.. bt i'm subsidised =) thanks for it ya! hahaa. anywae, had the classic cheese fondue set and i hate the vegetables. they give u raw carrots and some stupid vegetable which i hate. it's like ruining the cheese. bt that's just my opinion cauz i hate the vegetables. bt dipping meat and bread in was omg! the cheese was just perfecto! ordered 3 fondue sets and 2 person shared one and i think it's a lil too big for me. so it's better if u bring someone who can eat more. wanted to have e chocolate fondue bt was reallie too bloated to have another. went for a lil walk before deciding to head back hm. on the train we were still talking bout not having choco fondue then FINALLY decided that after the 30 mins walk and more resting that we were up for another. so wanted to go to try the choco fondue at swiss culture we were at kallang alreadie so went to haagen dazs for our dessert. it was good! 2nd tym eating it and it is still so delicious. bt i think it wld be better at la fondue or swiss culture. hmm. mebbe i'll try it out someday. all in all it was a very sinful day.
oh i bought a fondue set at taka. haaha. tat's wad set them in the mood for fondue that day =)

omg. cant stand my back for aching so much like tis. it's my 2nd day and my back hurts like crazy! still have so many things to do. goin out tmr with colleagues to celebrate earlie christmas so have to go get the exchange gift. i'm so broke that i have to BORROW BORROW money from my mother cauz i reallie have no money for 4 presents and the so many celebrations. wish i could just gather them all one shot and celebrate it at mcdonalds! oh and i havent cleaned up the hse, my OVen! my rm! not to mention i'm preparing all the desserts on thurs =) so busy!

results out tmr at 11am! wish me luck!

2009-12-18T14:17:00.003+08:00

4 exchange presents to prepare and party favours to prepare. not only for my friends bt also for my cousin. mary cant make it cauz of her daddy bt of course she is included. it's e end of the mnth and i am suppose to be saving up for my trip. bt cauz of christmas i have to spend lots of money. the 3+1 exchange gifts include one for the host of the christmas party on the 25th. going to a party where food and drinks is served during a festive season, so the present has to be of a certain standard (money flying away), exchange gifts with ex classmates, friends and colleagues=money flying away. all needs money and i'm only a student. how can i afford so many things. cauz daddy's working at suntec so he's on good terms with the chefs of the restaurants there so we can have till 21st to order our christmas roasts. WAS kinda excited for this coming chrismas eve cauz i persuaded mummy and daddy to have a christmas gathering again so that i can have some fun with some of my friends this festive season w/o having to spend big bucks eating christmas dinners outside. bt now reallie dunt feel like having any of it. mummy and daddy's working all the way till that day and mummy cant even take leave on thurs itself so the pre-preparation will be done by me. daddy brought the christmas menu asks me to decide wad i wanna order this yr. bt we could only order the traditional roasts food bt the rest?? i will have to think of what else we could have on the table and wad stupid gifts to give my cousins and relatives who are not coming. although i dunt have to pay for their gifts bt my mom is constantly reminding me how much she's spending on the party and i should help her save. and plus i must clean up the hse which is in a mess, my rm if i wanna have ppl in. it's all too frustrating enough to decide hw to divide the rest of my money on gifts and party favours! http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Party_favor and bout party favours it's suppose to be a small and most preferably hand made to let ur guests be reminded of ur party. bt having to go thru the process of researching wad is good to give and what can u make out with ur resources is fucking FUCKING irritating. i'm reallie nt up to it now. forget it. I'm done here. back to sleep since i didnt sleep a wink last nite cracking my head on the planning.

2009-12-13T21:22:00.002+08:00

food craving starts again.. these few days have been eating almost everything i wanted to eat. except... there's still pizza, kfc and spaghetti left. OH! and fish and co's fish and chips =) officially gained back wad i lost during the exam period. mebbe 500g more?? but nt too bad for eating so so much. hmm. bt when sch starts i can resume my weight loss prog again since it's 4 hours w/o any food at least every day goin to and back from sch.. so! 9 more days till we noe our results.. hmm.. exciting.. see ppl on facebook posting bout their gpa alreadie? anywae i'm so wanting to go out to get my kfc, cleo mag, and to go to watsons. bt my dad didnt seem to be moving out to work till now, it's 9.30pm! he's SUPPOSEDLY on night shift these few daes, is he? i dunnoe. he bought noodles for dinner, ewww! ok, it;s not exactly that disgusting bt i wanna eat fried chickeN! although i did have it last night for supper, bt it's nt kfc! omg! all i can think about is food nowadays! and my mensturation isnt here yet!! it's making me crave for food and i catn seem to resist it!
heck! i'm goin out for supper now!

2009-12-08T20:18:00.002+08:00

have been eating non-stop for the past few daes. gained back the 2 kg i lost during the exam period. OMG! so angire with myself bt i just cant help it. the thought of food is just so so so comforting! ytd wanted to go to century square and buy a pack of popcorn. bt went to tamp mart supermarket instead. bought damn lot of things. buy SOME food till it cost $40! and they're not healthy normal meal foods, bt snacks snacks and rubbish. been watchin this hk drama and i've finallie watched all 22 episodes in these few days. omg, i wanna have some cake now! cheesecake anyone???!?! wanna buy a whole cake! omg. i'm wasting so much money on food, although food is good for one's soul bt not one's waistline! bt the thot food, arghh! i just cant control bt wan to have it! just had my dinner and i'm thinkin of wad to eat now.
oh ya i made my own popcorn ytd. those microwaveable kind. bt i still like e crispy crispy cinema kind. there are recipes online, i will just have to add honey and stir and put back into the microwave again. hmm.. mebbe i will try. bt i reallie wanna have my cheesecake! or any kind of creamy cake. nt those purely butter solid cake bt those with cream.. hmm freshly whipped cream =) stopping for nw, jessie is giving me trouble again.

2009-12-03T23:48:00.001+08:00

i hate my mother

2009-11-30T21:56:00.003+08:00

sometimes i just hate how my mother think she's all so impt and that the world cant revolve w/o her. there are so many ppl in this world unemployed and waiting for a job. does she think that w/o her no one is able to take up her place even for a day or a week?!?! she shldn't hav given me hope in the first place. b4 my exams i was looking forward to after it then i could go overseas. then after tat she told me she rather stay hm and sleep. then after she said yes, we're going. then nw she sae off days might have changes. hello. if her off day have changes and my sch starts on jan 2nd week, hw can i go overseas?? i noe it's not directly her fault. bt i've been looking forward to this since so so so long ago, does she nt understand. i hate going to the airports because i see ppl happily pulling their luggage and waiting to board the plane.
i swear with my life that my future will be filled with overseas and overseas and overseas. i will go on holiday to have fun when i'm working in future. regardless with tat guy/girl, friends, colleagues or ALONE. i will go! she is totally spoiling my whole day, or night or week wadever. exams are over and i dunt feel happie at all.

oh ya, i ate too much todae, salted egg crab, fried fish, RICE! chocolates and apples. omg. i'm gonna gain the weight i've lost over the week! i must reallie find a way to stop myself from eating when i'm bored.. mebbe i'll resort to sleeping the whole day and night or going out w/o money! and i have to get up that threadmill and RUN! it's been mnths since i've switched it on.

2009-11-28T04:16:00.002+08:00

leaving in another 3 hours time and i have onli done 3 chpts. omg. how i hate that korean lecturer. his notes(as in slides) and explainations are so lousy and there's no link between pts. giving up the first half of e sem, so concencentrating on the last 6 lects. bt sigh. i'm still at my 4th one and it's lots of new info cauz i didnt go for the 2 last lects. hmm... mebbe i'm onli doin 5 chpts. think wunt have the tym for all 6. i dunnoe. there's smth bout all these history and asian studies, i cant seem to find links b/w em. think science is the best. logic. last paper. so yep. i need bout 20% out of this 40% to get a C grade. and C is 60% and it's just a pass. hate their scoring system.

anywae. i got my sony ericsson satio on wed! hahaa. so angrie bout missing the singtel fair at suntec on sun. wanted to go bt cauz mon had bio exams and i havent started till sun afternoon so ya.. and plus daddy says that the queue was damn long and u need bout 4-5 hrs to pay for ur purchase. so didnt go. bt on mon, after the bio paper, regretted nt goin cauz the stupid paper was f hard! even with bio background. cant imagine nt having a level bio background ppl doin the paper. so ya. bt anywae. wed mornin was studying for psy. was damn stress cauz out of 11 chpts, i onli completed 4. worked thru the nite and wasnt feeling exactly that good. parents went out and then daddy called and asked me what phone i want cauz my plan ended alreadie and he wants to change his phone. i told him e phone i wan is still very ex, wanna wait. then i slammed the phone dwn. then he called and asked if i wan blah blah phone then i said dunt wan i wan the satio, then he asked the sales person who told him it's 728 WITH plan. then after that i put the phone dwn and try to continue to study bt my mind is filled with the phone. i even went to check out on youtube and the sony ericsson web again. then i called on pretext to talk to my mummy then my daddy overheard that i reallie wan the phone then in the end when mummy passed the phone over to him, he just asked me wad colour i wan. hahaa! then, yep. i gt my phone. i was so excited i cant even concentrate studying.

luckily psy was kinda easy. although i onli studied 5 topics i could do 4 out of the 5 short qns which was suppose to come out from the 11 topics. hw lucky can i be. (wonder if i can be lucky for my hist later =(...)

bt anywae, yep. after psy exam went to take my phone =)

oh ya on thurs! met sab to "studie" bt anywae when goin back hm at the interchange. we took bus 28, then i saw there's this person on the bus did a double take and he looked reallie familiar. and yep, i was right. i got a msg less than 1 min later. it's been quite long since we talked. becauz we had this lil argument bout this girl. he met her while gaming and they so called fell in love and up till now i still think it's nt possible to maintain a r/s thru phone and webcam. bt anywae, he said their still together so, wish them luck!

ok. it's 4.33, i gotta study at least 2 chpts within this 2 hrs before getting readie to go! wish me luck!

2009-11-23T22:26:00.002+08:00

still so pissed that i missed out on the singtel fair at suntec ytd. Nw satio is $200 more expensive WITH plan! i shld hav went ytd.. wasted my tym studyin for e bio exam todae. it was so hard that i am only confident of 10 ans out of the 60 qns! it was even harder than the a level bio paper! wad makes it worse was that the lectures were damn brief and stupid. cant imagine those w/o bio background doin the paper. no wonder i see ppl leaving an hr b4 the end of the exam.

tmr's ss. oh noe smth?! i checked ivle todae and there was an announcement posted by my ss teacher to remind us bout our exam on 24 nov 9am. it's at 9am and all along i thot it was at 1pm! i'm serious. i even had my tym planned out how i'm gonna studie tonite and wake up at 9am tmr mornin to leave at 11. omg! if i just didnt check the ivle todae morn i wld hav missed my ss paper tmr!! this reminds me. during jc, forgot when exactly, bt it was one of the papers, i thot it to be 1 hour later, and i even msged maryann to meet me at the mrt at the tym the exam wld start cauz i thot it was an hr later! omg. bt i'm alwaes so lucky that i gt the time rite b4 i reallie missed the paper =) ok. back to studyin! tmr's schedule is so pack i cant even have more than 2 hrs to sleep!

2009-11-18T20:58:00.002+08:00

Studying time nw! so i'm nt gonna watch any kind of videos online! and i'm gonna limit my television time and "play" time!

Sigh.. bt i took 3 daes to read up on one chpt of psychology and i still havent finished.... sigh!!! it's just another 4 daes to exams and i havent done ANYTHING except for this undone chpt. ss, genes, history nt touched yet! stress stress!! i bought 8 cans of redbull todae. 2 ytd.. hope it works

i had fever on sun..a sudden one.. slept thru sun..took my miracle med and fever subsided sun nite.. no more fever on mon, bt my head hurt so badly i cant do anythin. tues felt wobbly bt went for interview so came hm and slept till 7pm=time wasted. todae, re read the front parts of the onli psy chpt i read and that took so SO much time. dunnoe if the chpts are getting harder or my brain is getting slower.

everyone at hm is sick todae! woke up in the morning, my bro came back hm after goin to work then visiting the doc and home. daddy went to the doc earlie in the morning. mummy vomitted just now. dunnoe wad's wrong with them.. i didnt pass it to them cauz i onli had fever, while they had dirrea (i alwaes cant spell this) and vomitted. so it's nt my fault! bt anywae they're goin to the hospital nw.. so ya.

good luck for my exams! wish my brain could get back to normal and i can rememb wad i read!

2009-11-14T01:46:00.002+08:00

french test went quite well "today". a bit missing my french classmates alreadie. tutorial classmates la. hmm. ning fei's so cute todae! hahaa. he and his partner ( i dunnnoe his name) wore bring yellow and bright pink shirt respectively todae. then they were like practicing their french. the guy kept askin him "Vous m'aimez" then he like " erm..oui, oui, je t'aime" hahaa. tutorial classmates are fun and nice. lect's? nt too good. bt ya. i'm done with it. hope i can scrape thru a C!

talking to huang huijing nw. been quite a while since we talked. been even longer nt meeting the girls. jc life seems quite long ago..

bt ya. my study week begins nw.. need to studie this week and get my exams over and done with and then mebbe work for a few daes.then wait for christmas then go overseas!!!! bt i need to save money too.. hahaa.

goodnite

2009-11-13T01:30:00.002+08:00

Dermain, J'ai derniere leçon francais! I'm sayin, sabrina choo, that tmr's my last french lesson. hahaa. translate for u.

went to sch earlie for rp. skipped french lect todae AGAIN. went for last history tut. i didn't say anythin AGAIN. and i got back my essay. irritating! "Good coverage of the information of the Nanking massacre, bt there's no examination of the document...." wadever. it's 20%. if i had known earlier i'll nt forsake my sleep.

went back home to get SABRINA CHOO's bdae present, cant bring it to sch cauz it's a stupid teddy bear. she REQUESTED for it! childish! bt anywae ya. hope she likes it. cauz i searched for like more than 30 pages on ebay. and it's nt that cheap okay! so u better treat it well! went to studie at teaDot. didnt studie much =( just a few pages... her mummy sent me home.. aww.. thanks MEI NU!

oh ya! i managed to take the goodie bag from the nus arts club. it's e "EXASMILE" there are vouchers and vouchers and vouchers, small bottle of loreal white perfect day cream ( think cauz we hav to whiten and get rid of those eye bags resulting from burning the midnite oil), another loreal sample, most importantly..FOOD! cafe nova coffee mix, storm lozenges, sunflower seed snack and KINDER BUENO WHITE! hahaa =) and i had a carbonated red bull FREE! hahaa. good sch ya. hahaa give me more things and i will go sch more often =)

ohya. final french oral test tmr. and i'm done with french! and then one week of INTENSE studyin and then exams. and then some work to earn some money and then sleep and rot at home and then..... HOLIDAY OVERSEAS! i'm so so so excited. hope in january 2010 i can read this post again and remember the excitement and anticipation i am experiencing now.. hahaa!

christmas come quick!! then january 2010= holiday overseas =) =) so so so excited!! stop me quick! i'm floating up to the ceiling! hahaa.

2009-11-10T22:20:00.002+08:00

Really worried for my studies now. only nw. i need 60 marks to PASS french. if i fail i will nt get the credit and which means i cant fufil the minimum criteria to go up to yr 2. went to check on the special term subjects offered. there is none tat i will want to take. and i'm now lagging in so many modules. psy: didnt go for any lect since the mid term test. which means 5 lectures=5 topics=40*5 pages. ss: only went for ONE lect in the while sem, 12 lectures to catch up (this is a 2000 level module!). genes: only attended bout 4 lects in the entire sem, there are bout 24 lects. history: nt that bad. out of 12 lects, went for 9. bt all i did was copy the slides. cant even find e link b/w some pts cauz i didnt pay attention during lect. french: finished all the tests(written and oral), one last oral test this fri. and i need 60 marks to pass. calculated my previous tests results. i must do brilliantly well for that test on fri to barely scrape the 60 mark.

OMG! i've been enjoying too long nw... i better buck up!

2009-11-09T23:30:00.002+08:00

spent nearly $14 today at teadot. tried new drinks again. i drank the... violet dreams and the...i forgot the exact name bt it's e green tea mocha bt it's e ice blended one. the green tea was ok... bt didnt reallie like the violet dreams. it's dunnoe wad tea i think earl grey with lavender. bt ya. it's not TOO bad, bt it cost $6.95 so ya... bt todae was ok. i sat there from 12 to bout 5 plus 6. studied for french test, did a bit of psy. bt i could do much more. think i will go back there again. this tym, i shall nt buy 2 drinks. i cant finish it and i'm suppose to save money.

oh ya. my uncle's closing his ubin's restaurant. he sold it to another guy for a high price. wonder if that guy noes that the govt is taking back the land there. hahaa. george yeo and my uncle's kinda close, so ya, tat's where i heard it frm. bt anywae, mommy has 15 daes off from 1st jan. bt she wunt hav anymore long holidays since the changi restaurant is operating EVERYDAE! bt anywae, we'll be goin OVERSEAS! yay! so excited. cant sleep last nite and kept checking cruises, tour packages... it's e wrong tym to do this bt i cant help it. bt anywae, at least i studied for tmr's test! and i'm revising it again nw. hope i can get thru tmr's last french written test, which i think it's e last tym i'm gonna write in french! so yea, get thru tmr, get thru fri's french oral test, get thru nxt nxt week's exam. and slack at hm for a mnth and i'm readie to go OVERSEAS! tat's wad i'm looking forward to!!

BT so so so so sorrie friends and friendSSSS. Birthdae presents and meetings... i have to postpone to AFTER jan.. hahaa!! no la. will try to squeeze out some presents first. i hope ;) bt dunt ask me to go shopping anymore! no no. mebbe once or twice. bt no more! i have to save by jan. and i have 0 dollards savings now. hmm... will see. oh i just bought smth from ebay. it's damn ex for such a thing! ok la. nt VERY ex bt it is a useless thing so i dunt think it's worth it. kinda regret it nw... bt.. as long as it is appreciated! cross fingers! ok i gotta go back to my revision, if nt it's a cfm i'll get a U grade. so CIAO!

2009-11-08T20:48:00.002+08:00

on facebook they're posting grad nite photos of hsc. ms cai was tagged. although she was kinda bitchy back then bt well.. she wasnt tat towads sec 4?? after our misunderstandings cleared. the last time i saw her was during the O level results dae, she hugged me. i could feel her u noe, it was quite big. hahaa. bt it was kinda memoriable. she's e 2nd teacher that hugged me, and i dunnoe why, bt the 2nd teacher that i hav quite an impression of till nw. the first of course will be mrs ow.. and speaking bout mrs ow... i miss her... at least in pri, sec, jc i had teachers whom made smth different for me. oh jc wld be.....er i think it must be peter goh or choi. choi cause she some how reminded me of mrs ow, bt of course she's nt as good. she's just all the look ( as in looks stern and everythin) bt nth inside. peter goh, woa woa, the first teacher who said i will fail in life! it went this way..... i admit i wasnt that into his classes, i didnt pay attention, didnt listen, didnt do his tut, failed his test. esp organic chem. didnt noe a SINGLE thing. didnt even noe hw to draw the hydrocarbons. cauz didnt pay attention during lects. jus copied everything dwn. so during tut, as usual, we presented on the board our ans. he asked me out. i didnt do it. and usually used either hj or dora or even yushu's tut to present. bt didnt borriw from yushu and all 5 of them didnt noe how to do. so went up and said i reallie dunnoe. then i dunnoe wad the hell was wrong w him tat dae, ppl who noes him shld noe. he dosent flare up. and i reallie dunnoe why bt he flared up that dae. sae i cant promote and go poly and fail in life. omg. and it was in front of the class. everyone was so shocked! i remembered i cried after tat, bt nt in front of him. and it was pe after. mary was w me and so on. bt yea. this is kinda vivid in my mind. fiy, and his, i did get promoted of course.
there's was the 2nd tym when he scolded me. AGAIN. it's alwaes me uh. bt well ya. this was during year 2. bt not as bad. just scold. i talked back at him becauz i wasnt at fault. he said sorrie. bt ya. i reallie dunnoe why bt he keeps saying till i will fail blah blah when hello i'm above the average in class and average in the level?? irritating. he's e only teacher that keeps picking on me. even ms cai didnt do so. and she was quite nice to me in yr 2, towards the back i think, cauz my results picked up and misunderstandings cleared.

bt ya.. sigh.. uni is boring. 2 weeks to exams and i still dunt wanna start! i have more than half of my lect notes untouched for 3 out of 5 modules mind u. gosh. i better start nw. ciAO

2009-11-07T18:48:00.002+08:00

presentation went well =) went earlie, bout 9 to rehearse with my group mate. i sent him my part of the slides on sun and he was suppose to finish up and sent to the whole grp on mon nite the latest. bt he didnt.. cauz he cant finish up his part. bt anywae, he's from china. bt he dosent sound or look like one.. more of a hong konger.. bt anywae, was reallie happie cauz i didnt screw up my presentation. only had bout 4 out of 12 slides answering the qn, cauz i reallie cant find any pts except for 2! bt well, everyone wasn't sleeping durin the presentation and the teacher kept nodding his head so ya, it's worth my 2 days of research and writting of script and doing of slides. bt bt bt bt! the funniest thing was that. after i presented it was my group mate's turn. He was so so nervous that he was shivering from head to toe. and with that funnie "hong kong" accent, plus his huge t shirt, shorts and slippers, he looked damn funnie. i cant help it and kept laughing throughout his presentation and lots were looking at me like, "what's so funnie" bt i dunnoe, just cant help myself.
bt yea, i skipped french and hist on tues. went to town with sab. wanted to buy something, bt i just cant find wad to buy, so bought some food back tat's all.

wed...went to tamp one with my mummy. went to make my specs. she alwaes didnt believe that i need them. bt well, it's proven. short sighted for one eye, bout 50 i guess, and astigmatism for both eyes, bout 100. it wasnt so expensive at first, bt i dunnoe, had the computer lens made and blah blah. cauz it will take bout an hr or so for my specs to be made, so went to jco with mummy for yogurt! we had 2 sets of sharing with 4 toppings each!! ahhaaa. think it'll be quite a while before i start eating it again, cauz i had too much tat dae. after tat went to cgh to see mah mah. oh ya, she's had her operation done on fri, ytd. dinner... then home.

fri.. skipped french tut. AGAIN! this is the 3rd consecutive tym. and i have a written test on tues, and oral on fri. and then another week before final sem exam!

sat.. just sorted out all my notes. wow. i have a lot a lot to catch up. within these 2 weeks b4 my exams. i did 50 mins of webcast today. for ss module. and i havent completed that one. which is another 50 mins more. to complete one lect. and i have like mebbe 6 lects to go for this module. not counting the rest of other modules! omg. i have to get started soon. ok. so that's bout all. sun tmr... mebbe staying in to studie or goin out to studie. i have to studie these 2 weeks. not goin out! i can easily do tat.. financial resources is limited. =(

ciao

2009-11-01T00:01:00.003+08:00

it's 1st of nov! the month of my exams. ok i noe i just blogged bout half an hour ago, bt cauz i viewed my blog and wanted to see my previous post bt accidentally clicked on the oct 2005, then read a bit, bout NETBALL..sigh.. i miss those days seriously.. words cant express how much i miss it. and then i read some post with ee wei in it..=( then our beijing trip together.. omg. MEMORIES is a painful bt beautiful thing. i recalled what happened tat tym, hw we were sleeping together in a hotel room, went to new places together, walked, talked, laughed together...omg! i just cant control my emotions now.. just so many things keep flooding in! tat's why sometyms i hate to visit my blog, it makes me think of things in the past. smth bout sk.. he wunt noe bout this, bt i do prefer and miss talking to him in the past, rather than now.. and so many of the people i talk to last tym bt nt nw.. mebbe it's just part and parcel of life being meeting new people and losing the old ones... just hope the more impt ppl in my life dunt just disappear bt we may grow stronger as the days go by. ok i reallie shld stop and continue with my work. just a final shoutout: I REALLIE MISS THE TYMS I HAD IN THE PAST ALTHOUGH I NOE THERE'S NO PT DWEELING ON THEM. I MISS NT ONLY THE TYMS (SEC SCH DAYS SERIOUSLY HAD MOST OF MY BEST MEMORIES) BT THE PEOPLE! HW WE INTERACT! NT LIKE NOW, JUST TALKIN BOUT HW ARE U, WHAT U DOIN NOW BLAH BLAH! ARGHHH! i hate sabrina choo to make me blog again!

2009-10-31T23:28:00.002+08:00

Thanks to sabrina choo AGAIN that i am here and to SOME other ppl who do still rememb i have a blog and told me about my update. firstly, i do go for SOME of my classes not none of them and i have webcast to reiew the lects at home ok, so stop reminding me tat i nv go to sch a all. Secondly i did mention i miss mjc as well, nt only hsc! bt just more memories in hsc. lastly, i finished my essay nice and sweet =) hahahaa. okok updates! for these past few days.. nth much. stayin hm when possible cauz of cash flow. bt bt bt! tmr morning i'm gonna have my money!! cant wait. i'll go to tm first thing to walk about. hahaa. alone! yes alone,i hav no prob w that. since bout 2 mnths ago, yes, i can go alone. so ya. OH YES, bout todae, sabrina choo came over to my hse to "studie". wanted to go mac, bt was lazy and tired,so i asked her over to my hse since no one was around. so she watched kang xi then she slept, then she ate, then she read 4 pages of her notes, then she slimmed her butt on my red chair, then she went home. so ya, she stayed from 4.30 to 10.30pm and only read 4 pages. i did my intro for my presentation okay. much better than her. hahaa. oh ya, sabrina choo also said i talk, walk, eat and behave very differently. i'm still figuring that out..

so sun i'm goin to shop at tamp for a while, wait. mebbe not. mebbe mon. since i'm goin to sch for a while on mon. ok. done. and tues is my presentation! omg, i;m gonna embarass myself. i noe nth bout the subject and cant find any useful info for my presentation and they;re gonna shoot me with qns =( and on tue i'm gonna get my french test back, which i;m gonna fail or do very badly..=( bt i'm lookin forward to after my lessons..shopping!! with sabrina choo... speakin bout that, we've been meeting, talkin very often nowadays.. hmm.. even more than in sec sch ya? ok, so u'll be in my wedding ivites! hahaaa.

2009-10-28T00:58:00.002+08:00

Thanks to sabrina choo that i am here today. Well, bout sabrina choo... we were quite good in sec sch ya..until we went to different jcs, then lost contact for a while, then after a levels went out for a few tyms then bang! we're good again. hahaa. wad i mean is that we will go out together now, talk more often, or shld i say quite often. hahaa. bt yea, it's good. stay in contact with my sec sch mates. sigh.. kinda missed tyms in sec sch. about a week back i suddenly msged ng yushu telling her that i miss mjc. (cauz tat day i went back to meet one of my new french frien, which went to mjc for tat day) bt anyway, went back to mjc, saw many meridians at the study bench area doin their pw or either studying for As, memories started coming back... sigh.. bout a yr ago, that was us studying there, with our ten yr series and notes.. sigh.. and after a few days, maryann wong suddenly msn-ed me and left me an offline msg, (bt cauz i was appearing offline) tht she missed hsc netball. well, bout hsc, quite a big portion of my sec sch memories was netball. and tat's becauz we trained hard under the hot sun. been under the most encouraging and nice coach (mr tony), he praises u for everything good u did, which of course is very encouraging. and of course the notorious coach vivan, whom even my history teacher, mr das noes as the very fierce lady. hahaa. bt yea, she's nice. she's just reallie reallie strict. still remember she walked out on us quite a few tyms, when we dunt do wad she wants (which is kinda hard to get cauz she will sit on her chair and just shout at u from there) or when we dunt do our own running or shooting outside trgs. her favourite pet phrases are : "get into the bloody court", "don't pay me lip service", "bunch of prima donas", etc, which i cant reallie think of right now... bt she's reallie nice.. outside of trg. bt yea, endured one yr with her and it's fine, we got thru it. bt yea, i love the tym during netball at that tym cauz of our team and of course my favourite partner, maryann wong, the tym when we're GA and GS. sigh, aren't we the best partners. i'm not accurate, she is, she's nt fast, i am.. dunt we complement each other... bt anywae, enough of sec sch!updates!

ok.. i'm in nus fass now. i have a 4 dae week, bt i'm only goin about 2 to 3 daes. hahaa! seriously, i have to STOP skipping sch, my attendance even for TUTORIALS are damn bad. i'll change, i reallie have to. bt yea, after my presentation on tues, i will start to studie! and that means reading all my course packs! i dunnoe why exactly i am here now when i have to hand in my 1500 word essay by 9 tmr and i have to get to my grandma's hse at 8 and i have to sleep too. so, ok, updates, i'll do it soon. (that;s if if i rememmber) ok. bye!

2009-06-14T20:13:00.003+08:00

starting on my last week of work tmr. OMG. it seems kinda crazy but i'm kinda missing my workplace alreadie. although i had a bad start and then changing of job scope... bt kinda glad that i had that change to call centre. time passed faster and it was kinda exciting to noe wad u'll get for the next call. since i'm slowly getting all the medicine and clinics names, yea, it's getting much easier. Getting to noe more ppl in the company too.. there's the delivery team's supervisor, manager,accounts, principal serive side... some of the pickers.. It's my last week...sigh.. dunt tink will get anything of it.. mebbe it's ok cauz i can wait till i start sch mebbe it'll b better. sigh.. we'll see how it goes..

2009-04-16T12:04:00.002+08:00

it's been quite a while since the last entry. suppose to be working todae. losing ALL motivation to work now. mah mah is in the high dependency ward now. she did her operation ytd. she has colon cancer, bt think it;ll be alrite, rite??? i mean after the op.

dunnoe wad else to sae other than i'm reallie hoping sch wld start soon. nus, ntu,smu any of these 3! HJ had her smu interview ytd. there's no news for mine.... sigh..

2009-03-18T17:10:00.002+08:00

took the dae off. saw her online for a while. restarted my com and she's gone. went to facebook and although i noe she deleted me off as a frien i still hope that it was some mistake on the part of faccebook and she was still my frien. bt it all came to be the same. she reallie wasnt my frien anymore. took a shot by goin to her blog. didnt see any updates. bt as i scrolled dwn to see her tag board she did have a lil conv w her gf saying that she has updates. went to the past history and found it. 2 posts. read it. of course it had smth to do w her gf. bt this tym i didnt reallie feel anything. instead was a lil happie for her. think i've finally gotten over her. hahaa. and like many had wished for, i'm back to normal! hahaa. mebbe all along i was normal. just didnt wanna accept tat she was nt interested. she has a gf and they're happily together. shouldnt have any hopes in the first place. just wish her all the best and think tat's all i can do for now.

havent made up my mind on the sch and the course. bt i've already submitted my application for smu bt frm wad i remembbered, i only filled in the parton double degree. think i'll have to call them up soon to enquire bout it cauz i cant seem to retrieve my application or even look wad i had sent over.

bout work... it's a bore. mebbe cauz it's e same thing everydae. and that girl is starting to give me attitude again. mebbe tat's why i dread goin to work. see her black face. cant wait for sch to begin. so i can get awae from all these and become a student again. goin for classes...dreaming in classes....doin hw....ahh! so exciting! oh ya, bt if i'm goin smu i wunt be able to stay in a hostel =( hmm... so many things to think and consider bout...wish me luck!

2009-02-28T11:24:00.002+08:00

it has started. the game booth. i'm nt gonna go and see wad bth of them came out with. whether it's good or bad they still have each other. so hw bad could it be rite. its been 3 mnths now. exactly. sab's so called over on her side. bt being able to get over it so quickly, i dunt think so. it's either she's still not over it or she wasnt that into it. well, mebbe it's good for her.. anywae. sun gonna give hj a bdae surprise!plan to go to her hse. oh ya. and it's e end of feb. nxt week gonna be d day for most of us. RESULTS! not expecting anything nw, surprisingly. not nervous. bt just kinda waiting for that dae to come by. so it wunt be a torture to noe hw badly i did.

2009-01-11T00:37:00.002+08:00

hey! updates..started work at zulligpharma on fri. wouldnt sae too much bout it cauz it didnt go too well. bt lunch was a rush. there's a lunch bus at 12.30 and on fri, it went to east point. so called yx and asked her to meet me there for lunch. bt reallie didnt expect it was so so rush. reached east pt round 12.50 and walked a long way to meet her. then went inside east pt then went out again. in the end we ate in a small shop near where my lunch bus will be leaving, which will be at 1.15! so so so so guilty. asked her come dwn to acc me for lunch, thot we could hav at least a decent lunch. bt she had to rush cauz of me. so sorrie. i'll treat her smth nice when i get my pay =) sigh.. bt work isnt fun at all! and noe wad?! it's only my first day at work! it's mmy first office job anywae. bt i kinda prefer goin to sch. cauz u can CHOOSE if u wanna dream off and slack. and u are allowed to make mistakes in ur work. bt for WORKING LIFE, u cant reallie afford to make mistakes ya. well. just hope my 2nd dae will make me feel better, which i doubt so. have so much to learn, adapt, do. hmm.. we'll see. bt it's only for 6 mnths. reallie REALLIE hope i can get over w it and someone SOMEONE pls appear to make me feel better.

2009-01-01T18:43:00.002+08:00

happie new yr! it's 2009 alreadie. fast isnt it. i'm waiting for her msg still. bt doubt it'll come. mebbe i shld msg her first. shld i? recently cant reallie get to sleep. bt think it's getting to me now. damn sleepy since ytd. or mebbe cauz i'm getting sick. nose is alwaes giving me prob these few daes.

oh ya. ytd went for netball at simei. damn lil ppl can! think s.im was damn disappointed. she's alwaes arranging such games and gathering. bt especially is damn nt cooperative. never once did everyone turn up. no. not even 50% of the team! sigh.. tink the nxt tym must arrange to hav EVERYONE, EVERYONE turn up, though it is hard cauz everyone has new commitments to attend to (work, sch,emergency cases, arranged meetings etc) bt it is possible if we all try!

it's near 7 nw. nt online and no incoming sms. think it's nt gonna happen. i can try. just sms and see if i get a replie. bt that will be lying to myself cauz it was suppose to see if i meant anything at all. bt mebbe nt cauz we just gt to noe each other and it was onli once that we reallie had a real chat. so i shldnt expect much ya. no expectations no disappointment. easy to sae, bt isnt easy to do it

sometimes we comfort ppl and tell them it's gonna be alrite and everything. bt can our words reallie bring them comfort. i doubt so. tat's why i hate it when my friends hav probs. all u can do is sae some encouraging words and stuff. bt it cant do much to help them or make them feel better. so reallie. what are the golden words that can make ppl feel better when they are dwn or are facing probs. which words can reallie comfort them and reallie lift them up from their probs. if u do noe the ans, drop me an sms or msg..i reallie wanna noe...

2008-12-24T02:16:00.001+08:00

well. bout 2 hrs ago, maryann wong ying xuan called to tell me she mistaken the party to be 23rd! so she cant make it tmr cauz she's havin dinner w her family and relatives. well.. i was upset at first cauz she told me so last min. bt it's fine. we argue, we get mad, bt it was never long. i remember we use to argue over netball stuff during the daes in mjc. we were alwaes in together for netball since sec 1?? hahaa. cauz we were bth shooters, partners. from wad i remember, we dunt argue bout really argue bout netball stuff in sec. onli in jc. it was stupid. bt, yea. i wld call her on the phone, voices were raised, angrie msges were sent. bt after tat we wldnt remember them. hahaa. and we wld meet the nxt dae on the mrt to sch and start to talk bout other stuff like the previous dae we didnt even argue. hahaa.. it's kinda funny though. bt i reallie treasure this frien and i reallie hope to keep it till we're old! hahaa. bt i doubt so. when Os are done and we proceeded to first 3 mnths. i was in tpjc, she was in mjc. however close we were in sec(netball 4 yrs, 2 yrs classmates), we didnt keep in contact during that period of tym. and when she was in squash and i was in netball and she was in 07s310 and i was in 07s309( our class is just nxt to each other) in mjc, we didnt keep in contact much. it was onli when she changed cca to netball, we went to sch together did we reallie keep in contact. Calls which we can talk for hrs, sms(onli sometimes), so yea, she is a great frien to hav. well, i just hope that we can remain in contact even after we go uni. which we did discuss to get into psychology together(if we could) i wouldnt mind! hahaa i kinda hope we can end up together again. =)

oh ya. tmr's wed, christmas eve!! the party! hahaa. kinda excited. i wld be seeing some of my long lost frien! huihua and yi xin! cauz the rest i see them everydae back in sch, bt it's been bout a mnth and 4 daes since i last saw them, which was on our last paper.. bt yea. kinda excited. bt not as excited as ytd. mebbe cauz mary's not coming. she can be considered to be one of my very very good friends. since we were together for like 6 yrs nw. hahaa. anywae, i'm sure we'll still hav a good tym! and i'm not askin HER cauz firstly, it's wierd cauz i dunt reallie noe her(although i wouldnt mind! ahhaaa) secondly, dunt wanna make myself disappointed cauz most prob she wunt come. thirdly, she's attached(most impt reason) so yea. this is how i'm gonna end this post. will update tmr after midnight service mebbe. ciao!

2008-12-23T05:20:00.000+08:00

cant get to sleep. went to friendster to check out her page, his page, who lives near you to replie msges, facebook to accept friends request, youtube to watch videos, hotmail to check for mails, her blog to check for new updates, msn to chat w friends, yahoo to search for new party games for wed, sogou to check for new album releases and now, blogger to post my new post. i've done all these and yet, i cant sleep. looking at the tym nw, it's 5.05 and i cant get to sleep. ytd had only a few hrs of sleep. i have to sleep bt i cant.

so anywae. todae. i baked cookies!! hahaa. it's a lil salty cauz i added too much salt when the receipe stated A PINCH of salt. hahaaa. bt it's edible ok! made it for the party on wed, which is TMR! omg. time reallie flies dosent it. it's christmas eve tmr! well. i hav loads to do tmr. gonna hav to help my parents w the food ordered and hav to buy some last min stuff like drinks, chocos and other stuff. and i'm settling all my last min gifts tmr! Cauz todae, which is later part of the dae i hav to clear my rm and the study, and the dining rm and blah blah blah.

oh anywae. let's continue wad i did todae. went to ikea. had dinner there, went to buy the stuff i need for my gifts, ordered christmas cake. again, some stuff here and dere.

cant wait for wed to come. though lots to do, the party's gonna be so much fun w my friends and cousins comin! haahaa. oh ya.. bout the suggestion fish gave me a few daes ago, dunt tink it's possible. she's not gonna come online and i wunt msg her. even if she was online. i cant possibly ask her since we seldom talk and even if we do. sigh... so yep. tat's bout it.

ok yep, it's 5.20 and i'm goin to bed i guess. i'll try to sleep... oops. its 0520! hahaa. some ppl wld noe wad i'm saying. (hint hint: pronounce 520 in chi, w a lil slang..awww, isnt it a good no to like?!) ciaO!

2008-12-21T19:40:00.000+08:00

locked myself at hm todae!!! was suppose to go out w huihua todae! bt my bro could only bring back my keys at 2pm! and huihua has to work todae so she has to leave at 4. sigh!

oh ya. mebbe it's a good thing i didnt go meet her at 11..cauz...we talked on msn! hahaaa. so happie. bt it seems like the conv was kinda still and mebbe nt that interactive. sigh. is it gonna be like all the sms-es. take long time to replie, and gonna end anytym. bt it's hard to reallie decide which is which. always when i wanna give up, i cant stop thinkin bout it. anywae i'll nt elaborate it here.

anywae. later i'm gonna clear my rm. i hav so much to do. so many books, notes, files, rubbish, dust to clear. i'm gonna clear my rm TONITE! i will! then tmr. making cookies for christmas. that will be my gift to my guests =) i onli hav 40 bucks left tis mnth.. hoping not to spend much on the gifts. cauz i still need the money to go out. i need a job that can provide me some money now. bt dunt tink i able to. someone(other than my bro) recommend me one pls!

sabby's so called done w her lovey lovey prob. bt will it be tat easy?? i doubt so. hahaa. bt i'll support u all the way!

baby jessie's beside me now. so cutee! wanna see how she look like??

2008-12-20T18:32:00.002+08:00

Accepted my add in msn!! was online. while i was trying to decide hw to start the conversation, to sae hi, hihi, hello, hey etc, went offline! HAHAA. bt it was good that i didnt start the conv at tat tym. cauz she might need to go somewhere or like someone said, might hav to go dinner w gf. then wunt our starting conv be damn short. so it was kinda good ya. it's 4 days to christmas party!! hahaa. so excited! bt i havent done anything yet. loads to do. it was about a yr since i last cleaned my rm. all my notes are stacked beside my bed and frm wad i just saw, a layer of dust! hahaa. after all it's been a mnth since the exams are over.

anywae. 4e3's gonna have a bbq! tink it's nxt mnth, bt it will be before 6th jan cauz jeremy's goin in to NS. dickson's gonna plan it bt he dosent reallie want EVERYONE there. bt it's a e3 gathering after all, so the whole class shld be invited. bt i wouldnt mind having teachers there. they dunt hav to be from hsc. could be from mjc(hint hint) mebbe.. a bio teacher?? dickson shld read this post. hahaa.

anywae i was suppose to meet huihua todae. bt cauz one of her cast members could only make it todae, so our lunch date is pushed back to tmr. it's fine w me actually since i dunt reallie intend to go to my jc class gathering. we'll see bout that cauz they wanna meet for dinner at sentosa! sentosa's damn far and dinner at sentosa will be damn ex. i'm kinda broke for now. since i hav to prepare christmas gifts for so many ppl. so i'm reallie sorry for that.

i'm still waiting for you to come online. we can talk. friends. oh ya. mebbe like fish said, mebbe i can invite her on 24th. hmm... i'm seriously considering. bt dunt think i'll be able to muster the courage to even ask. WAITING still....pls come online soon =)

2008-12-19T13:26:00.006+08:00

went to recruit express ytd. yushu wanted her free movie tix so i had to find her consultant, kenneth lim. i arrived there first bt was the last to be called in?? hahaa. bt it's alrite la. oh ya, he's also from mjc! hahaa.

anywae, met sab to go to ikea. wanted to get christmas cards and boxes for christmas. bt all the boxes were huge. dunt have those small small ones. intended to get glasses to replace those boxes. we'll see bout tat first. anywae. we took lots of pics in those showrooms. and she has some of the unglam pics which i wouldnt wanna post. haaha. idiot. keep threatening me w it. sigh, why did i even let her send ALL the pics from my phone. hahaa. then shu joined us at ikea, took some more pics, walked, talked, ate my $1 hotdog.
OH YA! met coach vivian! bt i didnt sae hi =( i wanted to! bt.. just didnt. she's thinner nw though.
anywae, cabbed back to tamp mall. ate at century square. went to fairprice to get some things for christmas. then back hm.

it's been 4 days since my add on msn. didnt accept my add. it was until ytd that i checked on friendster and facebook. turns out.. i gt the wrong address!! hahaa. phew. thot it was a delibrate act nt to accept my add. the email i remembered was smth like ....you@hotmail.com. i was right, just that is it ....u@hotmail.com! hahaa. i added at round 1 plus am. till now it's stil nt accepted. bt i'll wait =)

sao ba.. lovey lovey probs, i think u shld SHLD ask

anywae. here's my wang lee hom. love him, thus, his song, 心.跳
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sVlFGoCsL80

2008-12-16T23:49:00.004+08:00

i'm kinda inspired to blog after more than half a yr. well, loads happening. firstly, after more than 9 months not meeting each other, huihua and i are finally meeting! this sat for lunch! she's treating me to sakura buffet.. not that i'm looking forward to the treat! bt more of meeting up and catching up on our lives. met her briefly at downtown just less than a mnth ago. bt that was so so brief. we usually spend a day together. i ahve lots of things to tell her, including the part about HER and him and him and it and they and everything! so it's exciting and i;m looking forward to it. bt actually, i look forward to meeting her everytime! hahaa. thank god i went to the first three months, if not i'll miss out knowing such a good frien, which i wan our friendship to last FOREVER. haahaa. she's treating me to lunch cauz she noes i'm kinda broke now and although she is to, she still wanted to treat me...awww. isnt this kinda frien the BEST! hahaa. bt under the condition that her bdae nxt mnth she'll let me treat her, which i will! of course, present is a must and i;m gonna put my heart into making smth for her, not just anything, bt something which i think she'll be touched and can keep. i'm nt gonna reveal it here, in case she so happen to read this. bt anywae we'll be meeting and that's all that matters =)

This is so gonna be a long post, bt i doubt ppl will read it since i havent been blogging for so long. bt it's more for my own reading pleasure in future.

Anywae, the exams are finally over and i'm glad it ended, bt i'm nt looking forward to the results part. cauz i noe i'm not gonna do well. B is heaven sent, C is luck and D is wad i'm gonna get. mebbe D is good enough, i'm afraid of E appearing in my slip. ok. enouh of studies.

went to work in the sports sch for a few daes, 3 to be exact. there was a briefing bt yushu and i were late, very late. we onli got to see the last few slides, bt think it didnt really matter, cauz the real job was really a breeze. considering the fact that they are paying $7 an hour!

DAY 1 (28th nov 2008)
went there, stayyed in the IT room for like 2 hrs doin nth bt read magazine(luckily i brought one), played hp games, talk, sleep, do nth (THE CLOCK IS TICKING, 14 bucks) Then we were assigned groups and had to bring them to their hostel rooms. My assigned grp was (ba shen). So anywae, brought them to their rooms and checked there was nth they needed, and left, then after a few hrs of doin nth AGAIN, brought them to the audi for their opening dinner. job;s done. see, bout 6 hrs of pay and only doin these 2 things.

Day 2(29th nov 2008)
2nd dae... a memoriable dae. hahaa. ok la. u'll noe why later. anywae, went there at 10. myteam is so damn ncie, dunt wann me to come so earlie, so they took their own food vouchers and had their breakfast. awww. hahaa. bt shu's team went off w/o her. so after we went to the dining hall to check on my team, we went searchin for hers, bt couldnt find them, went to their rms bt couldnt find them. turned out that yushu made a blunder bout the rm no.s. hahaa. ok..ok... anywae. todae is competition dae for them. so ya. most of their times will be spent in the table tennis hall. since we had to accompany and take care of our teams, we had to stay w them in the hall. of course we watched the matches. so we're paid to watch the match. seriously. cauz actually the teams didnt really need us, just occasional checks on them and the job is done. give them water, snacks that was just stored in the room near the hall. so, yep, the job is done. first when we entered the hall, cauz my team was near the umpire table, we stood there for a lil while, shu told me bout this female umpire, damn handsome, i looked, it was ok to me. then she found another eye candy, a guy. he was as fair as a chicken. hahaa. dunt be so bad! it's a compliment byw! cauz shu;s team is so near his, we sat near them, watched his matches. he's good. nice to watch him play, PRO la.. cauz shu think he's cute so we were practically looking at him. okok. i did look too. so so so?? anywae. shu left early, so i continued watching his matches, updating her thru sms. then THEN THEN came the match with singapore's team, a lil boy.mind u, he's only 12 MAX. bt, this isnt the main pt. the umpire. is her. the one shu was saying bout when entered. she caught my eye cauz first, shu was saying bout her before that, secondly, she was umpiring the KL guy match. Thirdly, she was attractive.
so i watching, watchin him, her, him, her, her, her, her, him, her, her. there. i've said it. then for the whole of the day's matches, which lasted bout 8 hours i kept watching these 2 ppl. wad cha wan me to do, i was bored. bt i didnt watch them for 8 hrs, bt mebbe he 6 and her 4? cuz we spotted him first. anywae. made my wae to the it rm, competition hall, it rm blah blah. then when i was in the it rm, she did come in for a brief while, to take drinks. then met her in the toilet twice. the rest is in the hall. ok. so that's how i had my dae there. not knowing why, bt she was in my head the whole time after that KL guy's match. yiyang shld noe wad i mean, cauz he suffered frm my constant calling to ask him to ask his sis bout her. hahaa

DAY 3 (30th nov 2008)

got up early, wanted to rush to the sports sch, it's the finals, so i hoped she wld be there. regretted nt getting her no the previous. so i was hoping to get it this dae. bt she wasnt there. was NOT. i looked everywhere, no sign. so yea, was kinda depressed. hahaa. lost my chance. bt the KL guy was there. he's good, so he got into the semis than finals. anywae, made our wae out and into the hall, cauz i was looking for her. gt the attention of that KL guy, he kept looking over, bt too bad it was too late, cauz i had a new target. bt anywae, at first was watching his team play, since ytd. anywae since my team didnt get into the 2nd round, they watched the matches. ok, back to the story. we stood in one corner, i mean shu and i. we clapped for them occasionally. there's this uncle in the KL team, damn good. shu liked the way he serve, throw it high up into the air, jsut like the serve in tennis. anywae, he won the singles against the other team then after that when everyone was clapping and he was on his way out of the table tennis table towards his team, he clapped and pointed to shu and i, acknowledging us. hhaaa. of course the whole team turned and looked at us. of course, if this is the case, we clapped and cheered them on even more. so embarrasing. although we stood one corner, shu kept saying we were disturbing him play, cauz he could see us, so didnt do ay big actions to disturb him. anywae. played, they won, 3-2. gt first.
kept looking for her, bt it became obvious tat she wasnt gonna come. so ok, anywae, headed dwn to the audi for the dunnoe how come another final match, bt it was betwwen singapore team and dunneo wad team, some china team. we won anywae. shu annd i helped distributed drinks, magazines blah blah. then KL guy and his team came. sat near the stage there. then we stayed till the prize presentation cauz shu's team gt 4th. then the Kl team gt up, took their champions medal. when they came dwn, the uncle who earlier acknowledged our presence approached us.he wanted to give us his medal, saying he has a lot of them. OMG la, i noe he meant well, bt it may sound kinda arrogant. bt anywae, of course we couldnt take it, is isnt ours to begin w, plus we dunt noe him. so, declined. KL guy then asked for no and msn. i swear! i thot he was mebbe 20, 21? i didnt noe he was 25!! so anywae, that's hw the dae ended w me nt getting her no, bt his. oh ya. i gave KL guy yushu's msn. AHHAAHAA. dunt blame me for it, i'm doin her a favour!

ok. that's my singapore sports school work story. it went well. i earn $154 for practically doin nth, bt watch the table tennis matches and gt a new eye candy and a new " old frien" bt he's nice la, talked to him on msn. oh ya. recently i told him bout her. bt wad i cant stand is tat he crictised SINGAPORE! saying here is too safe, govt plan everythin for us. dont be jealous for not having such a good govt. i;m a good citizen and i love my country! so ya. that's wad i dunt like bout him. other wise, he;s alrite. i treat it like i have another adult frien to take care of me. hahaa. good to be young.

and details bout her.... i'm nt sure if it is just temp or wad. bt if a mnth later i come back blogging bout her again, is when i might be doin smth bout it. bt for now, let's just wait till she accepts my add in msn. we're friends.

oh ya. tat's all for nw, the other goin out, meeting friends and stuff, to me isnt tat memoriable as those few daes. so, ciao. oh ya. 2008 mjc prom incognito went well, pics.... i have not received all the pics bt u can go view some in my friendster or newly created facebook acc. omg. look at the tym. i've been typing since 12am. it's an hr now. so ciao, mebbe blog tmr bout previous highlights. muacks to her, myself and him. hahaa.

2008-05-20T22:23:00.002+08:00

hey hey hey. wonder why so many many many people like to blog. it's a lil time consuming dunt u think. bt well. was inspired by one of my classmate, so i decided that it is time to come here and give a lil update. let's start with.. 07s309 bbq on fri, 16 may 2008. well. met yang xin yun at tamp interchange where we took a bus to dora's hse. well, we watched an interesting show on tvmobile, where a girl was inducing her bg to have sex with her, bt kept saying no, BUT! she was unzipping his pants and keeps touching him. so it's like, ur actions saes YES!! but u're saying no. and she's accusing him of RAPE! lesson learnt: guys must make sure that his gf reallie wants it before taking it to the end. we went there. had food! tell u wad. we were damn stupid. in order to make sure that the money we paid for the bbq was worth it, we ate damn lil during lunch. was damn hungry and started eating before the rest came. hahaa. nicee yea. in the end, not the whole class turned up, as usual.. some had smth on, while SOME were home doin home work.. well, baack to the bbq. we had fun, eating, taking pics, talking. i helped to bbq ok!! hahaa. turned out nicee. honey bbq chix wings.. mmmm... it's mummalicious! although it's just a normal bbq w the class, it's fun when u just chill and joke around yea. we all ate our fill and had much leftovers. BUT!! from what i heard todae, someone, SOMEONE, had commented that the bbq is stupid and is only for FIT people to eat a lot. also, that someone dosent like our class one bit. but of course u wunt like it when u dunt even try. hai.

ok. future. tmr's mjc soccer finals with vjc. we're supposed to be released at 1.45, bt due to the soccer finals, the whole year 2s will be released at 12.55. just 1 period earlie?!?! might as well dunt release earlie. bt bt bt! i'm not goin for soccer match. shu and i are goin kbox!!! =) =) wang lee hom, here i come!! hahaaa.

oh ya. bout wang lee hom. the wang lee hom craze started last yr, dec. nth to do at home so went online, youtube, link link link till him. he's so freaking cute. let me link u to some of the videos which made him my very first star idol.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bsymTLp-PUw
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qf8EDCBYRHk&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p-Z-Zh7wJts&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LzNG2d1ltsE&feature=related

u'll be in love with him! hahaa. he's cute, talented, smart, hot!!! hahaaa. ok. enough.. u wunt be able to stand me if i go on. hahaa. okok. reLAX. tink tat's bout all for now. see ya. SOON??

Leehom Wang - You're Not Here (Live on DVD)

2008-01-15T23:11:00.001+08:00

2007-08-31T20:36:00.000+08:00

ooh whoo!! went to suntec's pc show ytd! =) finallie.. finallie! got a notebook! from acer!!! wow wow.. finalli! after so damn long..
when there's smth happie there'll be smth unpleasant.. ytd had a damn bad dae except after sch.. in sch ytd, during CHEMm was scolded by peter goh..sae that i;ll fail promos and get kicked to poly.. it's harsh.. but. it's true that my chem isnt good at all.. and i tink i'm gonna have trouble promoting. and wad if he dunt let me promote?? no no.. im reallie scared rite now.. hai..
secondly.. i cant studie in sch.. while studying..memorising for bio spa ytd, nth can go in!wtf! ah!! ok.. so tat was my dae ytd..hai.. damn stress... mj is super disgusting!

todae.. teachers dae celebration! didnt go to sch todae..xy says that todae's party is damn sucky.. veri few people.. there's onli 5 girls for goodness sake! and hai.. now whenever thinkin of chem i damn stress! tue have chem remedial.. HAI! see him i damn stress... i onli have like one week to catch up on two terms work! i must start tmr.. and i will... i'll stop my tv for a while! i will i will!! jia you!!

OH Ya! huihua has ot chicky pox.. =( aww.. take care k... i'll wait for u..

2007-06-09T19:37:00.001+08:00

ooh oooh!! ytd went out with huihua!! hahaa! supposedly to go to the farm, then moviee, shopping then bbq.. hmm.. but last min changes! went to vivo for another round of pirates of the carribean! awww! he's still so cutee!! hahaa.. after that, we went to the 分手台! hahaa.. it's true! it's alwaes true for moviees! but the atmosphere's nice...then went round shopping, walkin, talking... went to orchard for that. marks and spencer here we come!! got my piggy!! finallie! cauz the one at paragon dosent have wad i want, so we went all the wae to wheelock just to get it.. proceeded to marina bay for bbq.. didnt noe how to get there by bus.. BUT! hahaa. when there's a will ther's a wae.. took bus 400 and ta daA~~ we were there! played a lil b4 eating.. too bad suddenly hh she got gastric! must take care of yourself k! hmm.. that's bout all for now.. hmm.. toodles then! =)

2007-06-02T20:55:00.000+08:00

loads of things to do, to be completed. but none done nor completed.. messy messy messy.. when is it gonna come.. sigh.....

2007-05-30T21:31:00.000+08:00

hai hai! all of the tests results out.. hmm.. let me see.. chinese.. B? gp's a E.. econs and maths.. S?? chem, bio a U?! AHH!! and everyone's studying.. hmm... tink i'll start soon.. SOON.. oh ya!! last fri met up with darlin huihua for a lil workout and then to S309 bbq.. it was so so fun!! hahaa.. i love being with her.. we just kept talkin and talkin.. hahaa.. we'll meet up real soon rite.. yea! ok.. on 22nd there's hsc netball bbq at pasir ris park.. pls cum!

2007-04-13T18:59:00.000+08:00

wow.. it's been a long tym since my last entry... loads of things happened... especially friends..my class is alrite.. just that... nah... it's good to keep somethings a secret.. SHH!! all i wanna sae is that i hope things get better as we still haven 1.5 yrs together.. when things get to such a stage.. wad comes to my mind automatically is huihua.. dunnoe why lei.. hahaa. good rite!! hahaaa. anywae... we arranged to go out nxt sat!! cantt wait!! arghh!! till then.. ciaO!c c=